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20/11/08 22:26
20/11/08 18:30
Hiya hun.Have you had a good day? Try not to worry to much about what they've said at the hospital.If they didnt seem to concerned then thats a good thing.Have you thought about going to the docters and talking about how you feel? Cant believe Jack is already having girl problems.he must be a little stud! Isabelles still off school,shes worst than ever today,shes been asleep for the last few hrs,and hasnt eaten anything.Millie is coming down with it too.Shes pestered for her supper since 5.30 and i made it at 6 and she wouldnt eat it,theyre both ready for bed but its a bit to early yet.What time does Jack go to bed? On a school night its usually 7 ish but she gets a stay up night at weekend until about 9 so she can watch x factor cos she loves it. Garys dad doesnt have another family,but hes still with the woman he left garys mum for,they didnt have kids together just as well as he hasnt a fatherly bone in his body.How come you dont get on with your dad? You dont have to answer that if its a private thing.Im really lucky my parents are still together and a really good strong couple,i always wanted to have a relationship like they do.Do you get on well with your mum?
Im so tired tonight,will probably go to bed early.Im gonna go now cos Millies squashed right into me and im really uncomfortable.Dont think Thomas likes where shes led either hes going mad kicking.Will be on in the morning,Speak to you then.Night hun.xxxx
19/11/08 20:49
hi hun..... how u doin? glad it all went ok 2day, my brothers got ballence probs n waiting 2 c sum1 bout it, hopefully they'll sort it out, didnt go 2 bad 2day, tho they carnt really tell me much at the mo, gotta go back at around 28 wks so they can have a check, they wanted 2 do a biopsy but i said no cos im preg, but might say yes nxt time as i'll b thurther on, he told me my last results came back half a level away from "c", so they wanna really keep an eye on it, but i have 2 wait 8 weeks after birth b4 treatment, but he didnt sound 2 worried, emily was goin nuts when he was doin it, she was kicking right down there, i said 2 my mum shes saying get away from my mummy,lol, god garys dad sounds like a right c***,did he have another family? sounds like ur btr off without him, that sounds good if gary does training, what would he do? i think sumtimes these days u r btr off on benifits, espech with 2-3 kids, u really need a decent job 2 get by now, i dunno why there bieng so tough on him, i know loads of people rnd here who have been on jsa 4 10 yrs +, n they dont have 2 get jobs?mark gets paid 25th, so 1 more really, but im not goin mad, its not worth it, every1s gunna have 2 understand weve got a new house n bump, n id rarther spend the money on jack n pink stuff, his got women probs already,bless him, 3 girls fighting 2 b his girlfriend, he loves it n is so cheeky, anyways hun...... im soooo knackerd, gunna get sum sleep in a bit, keep doin really stupid things, night hun xxxxx
19/11/08 14:41
Hiya hun.Why dont you go and see a docter if your worried about prenatal depression? It would be better to know now than when Emily comes and things got worse.You shouldnt be feeling as bad as that,itll help you if you get it all off your chest too.I had postnatal depression when i had Isabelle and i wouldnt wish it on anyone,its the most lonely experience.Ill gladly give you my mobile number for if you ever need anything,even if you just want to txt me.Just let me know.We will have to swap numbers at some point then we can let each other know when we have our bambinos! Antenatal was fine today,docter thinks i have an infection in my central nervous system that affects balance and things and thats why my dizziness and stuff are so bad,Got to see how it goes over the next 2 wks.Hope your hospital appt goes ok today.Let me know what they say.
Its poo being skint isnt it? Believe it or not i think were actually a little bit better since gary got made redundant cos money comes fortnightly rather than monthly so it works better.Garys thinking of going to college to train,he wants to get off job seekers asap and theres no jobs at all here,places closing down left right and centre.The job centre told him he had to apply for cleaning jobs,how many fellas would want to do that though? Its degrading.They make you jump through hoops.I think he should go to college cos hes really clever and could do whatever he wanted to.How many paydays does mark have left before christmas? Im so glad the kids stuff is mostly done cos i would be so worried now,gonna have to leave some people out this year but its tough. Kids have to be priority at christmas dont they.
Your dad doesnt sound good! Garys dad is just a waste of space.Ive no time for him,hes never made an effort to see Gary or his sister and didnt even talk to them at the funeral,and there was only 6 of us!Hes out of our lives now though so it doesnt matter anymore.Gary was quite upset on Monday night,i think it all hit him then rather than at the funeral.Hes ok now,it was for the best cos she was ready to go.His dad didnt even get any flowers,and yet we managed to buy 2 sprays and were skint. Anyway this post is going on forever.Dont want to rant to much and bore you. Speak to you soon.Hope your ok at the hosp.xxx
19/11/08 10:03
hi hun.... sounds like u've had a few really poo days, how u feeling now? u sound worn out hun, whys everything so exausting when ur preg? how did gary take the funeral in the end? did he talk 2 his dad? i take it u didnt like him then, dads r a nightmare, hope u get on ok at antenatal n drs, r u feeling sick again? ive gotta go 2 the "c" hospital at 2 2day, im crapping it, dont think they'll know much tho? my mums cumin with me 2 hold my hand so it'll b ok, shes seen my bits so many times, i dont get embaressed anymore,lol,i just wish i could b left alone sumtimes, but its good they r keeping such a good eye on me, i always get really scared im gunna bleed after n get really bad period pains, hows thomas doing? emilys a little madam already,lol, shes so awkward n always gets in2 funny positions which kill, is thomas still low? shes as low as she can get still, u can feel her right on top of my pubic bone, im carrying her so different 2 jack, he was alot more cumfy 2 carry, have u been watching im a celebrity? u know that killroy bloke, his so much like my dad its unreal, his a nasty piece of work, his got all the manerisms n gives the evil eyes like him, havnt been up 2 much, im still a boaring cow, still feeling crap n depressed, looked pre natal depression up on net, n ive got every single sympton, i just feel like im stuck down a whole n carnt get out? i just wanna b back 2 my old self, ive been crying every day n just feel awfull, like i could stay in bed 4 weeks n not get up,god sorry hun....i'll make u feel like it if i carry on! have u been up 2 much? hows it goin with ur friend? hows gary getting on job hunting? i bet u'll miss him when he goes back, is he waiting till after xmas now? id hate it if i had 2 get a job now, would u? ive been thinking bout doing avon or something, but all my mates who did it ended up bieng ripped off, were well skint at the mo,b4 mark gets paid, carnt wait till xmas is over n we can buy baby bits, have u brought anything latley? i wish i had £1000 2 buy anything i want, anyway hun...... soz bout the post, hope it wasnt 2 happy 4 u,lol, take it easy n speak 2 u soon xxxxxx
18/11/08 17:24
hiya hun.its the first time ive been on since that last message i posted,havent really felt like it,just wanted to get yesterday out of the way.its all done now though and everything went ok,would take to long to tell you what a k*** his dad is so just gonna get on with it! how have you been? hope you've felt ok,im seeing the docter in the morning after antenatal cos i dont feel right again.dont think itll make a difference though. isabelles off school cos she has a really bad cough so im bound to have that in the next few days to.i know it isnt her fault but shes driving us mad with all the coughing now! might have to gag her! your not still feeling down are you? what you said about not feeling close to mark,its only cos of how crap your feeling,i bet he doesnt see it.you will be fine,especially when emily comes along.i think these things are always in our heads,ive felt so insecure and was certain gary must have gone off me but he was so upset when i asked him.he still thinks im sexy even if i feel like a fat heffer.its pregnancy hormones hun,and everything will be fantastic and back to normal soon.doesnt mean we cant have bad days though,and take it all out on them.thats the joy of pregnancy.
have you done anything in the last few days? im really gonna have to crack on with the christmas shopping,cant believe how quickly its coming.still got a fair bit to buy.thank god i have the internet this year,i really cant be bothered with all the crowds its really busy in our town centre already.you said it was bad down where you are too didnt you,maybe they all know sommat we dont. gonna miss having a drink at christmas,will you? do you think you'll touch anything? i want to get a bottle of wine and have a few glasses with christmas dinner but am scared ill do some damage,how stupid is that cos i did have one or two the last 2 times i was pregnant.its cos i had a few bleeds earlier in pregnancy and it made me paranoid. feel like we have loads to catch up on but i dont want to write too much! will let you read this first.speak to you very soon.xxx
16/11/08 20:33
hi hun..... how u doin 2day???? just a quicky as im knackerd but just wanted 2 wish u lots of love 4 2moz n hope it goes ok xxxxxxx speak 2 u soon .....
15/11/08 18:13
hi hun.....just came on 4 a quick look, how u doin 2day?im not feelin 2 bad, but ive been really depressed, i just carnt stop crying n thinking i carnt get thro this, i just really wanna feel like myself n im really missing my old life,im just so stressed n miserable, n i feel like ive pushed mark away so much were never gunna b close ever again, everything any1 says i take it 2 heart n carnt stop thinking bout it, anyway hun, soz 4 that, i just really needed 2 get it off my chest,dont wanna b miss depressing, glad u n gary spent sum time 2gether, u should try fifa, its really easy 2 get used 2 it, i end up screaming where i get so in2 it, have beat mark loads, my brain doesnt work at all at the mo, im crap at macking desisions aswell at the mo, i carnt belive u used 2 b anorexic, r u ok now or is it still tough now? poped out 2day, got jack sum wellys n sum food shoping, had a look at the girlie clothes, there soooo nice, every wheres mad down here shopping wise, is it like that where u r? dunno why its so bad, took us 20 mins 2 park earlier, deffo doin xmas shopping on the net, marks gone 2 essex 2 get sum wheels of ebay, n jacks waiting 4 youve been framed, he goes on about it all week n asks everyday if its on, anyway hun, gunna have a nosey what every1s talking about, speak 2 u soon xxxxxx
15/11/08 17:18
Hiya hun.Hope your feeling better today.We lost our internet connection with virgin the other day,thats why i hadnt been on,we didnt lose the phone or tele but most people did.You must have been bored out of your head.We have fifa for the wii but i havent played it yet,cant master the remote for some of the games so gary bought me big brain academy cos i love it.We were playing that last night but ive lost all my brain cells since being pregnant i think,i did really crap at it and im normally really quick.Had a really nice day yesterday in a strange kind of way,didnt do anything special but felt like me and gary actually spent time together,i even stayed up to 11(which nearly killed me!) just so we could make it last.Since being pregnant ive felt like i dont take enough notice cos im always so tired.im always in bed for 9.
im gonna have a bath with millie now,ill try and get back on later.be nice to have a proper catch up.speak soon.xxx
14/11/08 22:41
hi hun...... soz not been on 4 a chat IVE BEEN IN HELL!!!!!!!! virgin in this area has had a massive prob, n ive had no tv, internet or phone, ive been sooooooo boared!!!!!! not been up 2 much, got a cold n sore throat, n my heads banging like mad, but no tvs made me get on with sum housework,lol, n ive got addicted 2 fifa on the xbox, as its been the only thing 2 do, anyway hun i'll b on 2moz 4 a long chat, as its killing my eyes, speak 2moz xxxxxxxx
14/11/08 15:05
Hiya,are you ok,its unusual for you not to have been on at this time! Ive been in town all afternoon and im shattered now.I bought millie a dora explorer hat set and shes now sat on the settee with it on cos shes cold! Strange child. Think were gonna go to the christmas light switch on tomorroow,isabelles staying at my mums so it will be just millie but im looking forward to it.Think its david from coronation street thats doing it,wow!!! Wish we lived in london were they had decent people doing it,we get all the rejects.Are you doing anything for the weekend? Been in debenhams looking at baby clothes and there is some beautiful girl stuff,almost made me want a girl.The boys stuff is lovely too but its a lot of jeans and i dont think they are any good for a baby who is led down all the time. Have to get ready to o and pick isabelle up now.Speak to you later.xxx
13/11/08 12:25
Hiya Hun.How are you feeling today? Have you managed to eat anything? When do you have your next appt with a midwife? I go next week,got to see the docter too cos ive started to feel really bad again.Its starting to clear alout dinner time but im really ill at mornings again,will just see what they say.Im dreading the funeral on Monday if i feel really bad,were gonna have to be out of the house for about 9.30,dont know how im gonna even get ready.
Did you enjoy the peace the other night when mark went out to watch the match? I cant remember the last time i was in the house on my own.This is the closest ive had to it,just me and millie cos garys gone to the funeral parlour to see his grandma and wanted to go on his own today.Were watching playhpouse dosney and its driving me mad! Ive printed a load of pictures for her to colour but i dont think shes interested today.
Have you been getting any heartburn? Mines getting really strong now,going through rennies and gaviscon like theres no tomorrow but its costing me a fortune.Might see if i can get some on prescription.Dont think you have to be worrying about putting weight on in this pregnancy,you will be in minus figures by the end! I didnt put weight on for either of the girls,with isabelle i was back in my jeans that are size 8 to go home from hospital,and they fit perfectly.I was anorexic when i got pregnant with isabelle though and ate enough without eating to much,and with millie i wasnt ill anymore but its hard to get your head around putting weight on.Ive put more on this time,and i dont like what i see but i was about a stone under weight when i got pregnant so i know its not that much of a big deal,i think my bump is completely different this time too,so maybe its because its a boy.Is your bump different? Think my boobs are bigger than my bump!They just seem to growing more and more,feel like a glamour model! Wish i could keep them like this after ive had baby. My friend who i told you about the other day keeps ringing.Im just ignoring it though,im so ignorant.I did tell her i might be out though so its her own fault
Gonna go cos i can see gary on his way back.See if hes ok.Will speak to you soon.xxx
11/11/08 20:18
oh yeah..... what is it with the numb legs???? its driving me mad, n i keep getting really bad pins n needles,espech in my arms n hands at night, it keeps waiking me up....anyways xxxxxx
11/11/08 20:14
hi hun.... u just made me poo myself,when u said 16 wks 2 go!!!!! how scareys that, ive been really porley yday n 2day,last night i thought i was goin in 2 labour as i was getting loads of pains,n 2day i just feel like ive got nothing left in me,i carnt even hold my arms up as there so weak,couldnt take jack or pick him up 2day, gunna go 2 drs 2moz if its no btr, im glad ur all doin ok,i hope gary stays ok, i hate funerals,ive never been 2 1, i find it easier 2 go when its all over n c the flowers n say goodbye,i think ive got a bit of a phobia, just watching eastenders, who do u think run over max? i dont think it was her, might snuggle up in a min n watch sex in the city, put my mate off cumin 2nite, i just wanna chill,bubs is goin mad all the time, she really kicks me hard now, my bumps really big n itchy, anyway hun im gunna get the quilt down enjoy the peace, hows ur mum doin now? got my aunt lined up 2 take jack 2moz if im still crappy, i carnt belive how hard this pregs been, they do say girls r trouble, not had my food yet, im bieng really sick again, had 2 get mark run 4 a bag last night when i was in the bath, n was really sick, i think ive lost at least another half a stone, everythings just falling off me, have u put much weight on yet? i was reading sum of the other girls have put on around 18lbs, did u put on much weight with the girls? i only put on 5lbs with jack, was really lucky,n he was 7lbs6, so i was less when he was boarn, im talkin crap now,so i'll speak 2 u soon hun xxxxx
11/11/08 17:48
Hiya hun.Wish you were feeling better,glad you had a good weekend though. Your not gonna manage any of that good stuff you ordered in your food shopping! Send it to me,im craving sweet stuff constantly,and i never really bother with it. My bump has got massive too,Thomas is moving loads more as well,my belly keeps moving all over the place,its all day too,dont think he likes slepping much so thats not a good sign is it? Im not used to babies that dont sleep these 2 were really good and slept through from 6 wks.
Are you having your girly night? Hope you have a good time if you do.I cant be bothered with anything at the moment.Really have to go into town tomorrow though cos we need to order the flowers and i need to buy some black shoes.Isabelle got on well with her gran but millie just screaned every time we went,she didnt take to her really. Garys much better than i expected him to be so im not sure its sunk in yet,might not hit him until the funeral.I would be so angry if ever got robbed of the chance to say bye to someone i loved.
my mind keeps going blank too,im so brain dead at the minute i even keep getting the kids mixed up!sleeps getting worse too,i cant get comfy in bed and my legs are going dead.only 16 wks more weeks of suffering to go! My minds gone blank now! Had loads of stuff to say and i cant think of any of it.Ill get going and see if it comes back to me. Speak soon.xxx
10/11/08 12:57
hi hun..... omg, how s***tys that, carnt belive u didnt know, i never got 2 say goodbye 2 my nan n have always regreted it alot, were the girls close 2 her? hope his ok, i keep goin really blank when i come on here, my brain doesnt work at all at the mo, ive just had 2 crunchy bacon rolls n maltesers, i feel sooooo sick, i ts not gunna stay down at all,i was so sick last night, it was awfull, i was in so much pain, it felt like my stomack was gunna come out my mouth, n was heaving all morn b4 i took jack 2 school, did the shopping on the net last night n got all stuff i fancy 4 a change,instead of the norm, carnt wait 4 it 2 come,orderd rasbery pavlova,rubarb crumble,red grapes,choc pop tarts n loads of nice biccies, yday i kept down poached eggs on toast, so about 500 cals again, shes defo growing tho, my bumps grown loads in the last wk, i look preg now..... ok gunna stop wrighting bout food now,lol, thomas is ok, gunna get sum garden gloves n start handeling him,so he gets used 2 it n we keep our fingers, he likes jack tho, just bites me n mark,we must b tasty, went 2 marks mum n dads on sat n watched footie, arsenal beat manu, so we was happy, marks goin 2 watch em 2moro night, so i might have a girlie night, dunno yet? his mates cumin rnd 2 pick him up,so he wants the house 2 b perfect, but its a complete s*** hole, i just carnt get motervated 2 do it at all, i havnt even done my make up yet, ive just got no energy at all, anyway hun, soz 4 goin on, hope ur ok,n sort the funeral etc out, speak 2 u soon xxxx
10/11/08 12:33
hiya hun.hope you had a good weekend.hows your sickness been? garys not to bad,she had been diagnosed with cancer a few months ago,and deteriorated really bad apparantly over the last week.no one told us she had been taken to hospital so were really angry about it. anyway lets try to cheer the mood up a bit,what a s***ty week its been.
hows thomas the hamster? hope hes not escaped again.cant think what to write today,my heads all over the place.ill write later on.garys sisters just come so were gonna have to sort some things for the funeral.speak to you later today hun.xxx
9/11/08 12:14
oh thats a shame hun..... is he ok? was she porley? just thought id have a quick nosey, but got loads 2 get on with, think were having a spring clean,but getting the new front door put in at the mo, looks like their doin a right bodge job,so hope its gunna b ok, hope ur all ok n sorry bout ur sad news,will have a good catch up soon xxxxxx
8/11/08 17:25
Hiya hun.Hope your having a nice day.Nut a long message,Garys grandma just died so i might not get chance to come on tomorrow.Just wanted you to know im not ignoring you.Will speak to you as soon as i get chance.Hope your ok.xxx
7/11/08 18:56
hi hun.... just thought id write a quicky as i dont think i'll b on 2moz, gunna go 2 marks 2 show his mum the dvd n watch arsenal, my minds gone totally blank n carnt think of a thing u wrote,hope ur ok tho hun, god my brains dead!!!!!! speak 2 u 2moz or sun xxxxxx
hi hun.... how u doin 2day??? hope ur ok n had a good day, take it u havnt been up 2 much with the kids ill then?hope they get btr soon, jacks got a cough again, his picked up loads since his started, which isnt good as he gives it all 2 me, little monkey, yeah he is a bit of a stud, every1 swoons over him, bless, i'll have 2 get mark 2 put sum pics on here 4 me, so u can c him, there all on the pc, as i walk him 2 school all the girls r like "look mummy theres jack"lol, im gunna have a look on debenams website in a min n c what bargins they've got, havnt been 2 drs yet, wanna c how it goes 4 a bit, im feeling a little btr 2day tho, i hate this stage of preg, it seems like not much goes on n u've got adges 2 go still, thats really nice bout ur mum n dad, how long have they been 2gether? my dads ok sumtimes, but his drink prob makes him nasty, his been like it since b4 we were boarn n drinks at least 6 cans of tennence super, 2 bottles of cider n anything else he can get his hands on a day,its like everything in his whole life his put drink b4 it,but he doesnt wanna change n u just have 2 accept it n move on with ur life, i had loads of counceling 4 it about 5x n it really helped, i had 2 forgive him n kinda grive 4 the dad i want if that makes sence? god.... i bet u wish u never asked now, soz hun..... my mums great shes like my best friend now, i moved in with my dad when i was 13 as we didnt get on n kept clashing, but been really close 4 the last 5 yrs, ive had a really good spring clean 2day, which feels nice as its all looking lovely, it was only cos marks mum n dad came rnd n it was a tip, emilys finally moved up a bit which is soooo much more cumfy, my boobs feel really big n heavy, like im gunna get milk soon, when do u get it? i carnt remember, jack made a song up about my boobs the other day, n sang it looking at them,lol, his so strange, i didnt know what 2 do, anyway... soz ive gone on hun, i talk so much crap these days, speak soon hun, im knackerd xxxx