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28/10/08 06:58
Oh my goodness, what an awful time for you Alex. I'm sorry you had such a wasted time yesterday and over such an important matter. If I were you i'd be ringing up come 9am and making an appointment to see your onc asap for him to go through everything with you, that's what i've had to do in the past with hospital matters.
I truly hope you get some answers soon hun.
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27/10/08 22:29
OMG I can;t believe you are being treated like this. Are you going to ring your onc and see what he has to say. You are no better off than you were before the appointment, I'm so angry for you,
I really don;t know what to say, I just can;t believe they can be so vague about something so serious. How you are going to destress I don;t know, but I suppose the longer they leave you the more chance your little bear has got to grow. Sending you lots of love and hugs, keep ranting on here, thats what we;re here for. Hope you have a more restful night than you did last night, love Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx -
27/10/08 22:17
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27/10/08 22:16
aww im sorry that you didnt get the nemws that you wanted, they shouldnt mess you about like that and letting someone see you that clearly hasnt got a clue what shes doing, im praying that everything goes well for you and your little bear, stay strong hun
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27/10/08 22:06
well i didn't get home till 9pm... sorry ladies there is no good news but i need to rant and let off some steam..... got to oxford early, what for i don't know cause the clinic was running 1 1/2hrs behind... so i didn't get seen till 5.40.... i didn't get to see my own onc who i trust, i got to see his side kick, who obviously didn't read my notes as she had no idea why i was there...????
the stupid woman casually said "so how is things then, any problems, no further recurrences of the melanoma then" deeerrrr stupid woman, i explained that's why i was there and had to tell her about the malignant tumour etc, she went away to look at the records to see if they had any correspondence from northampton... she returned and said " i have a letter to say that they removed a tumour but thats all, i need to contact them to get the results regarding safe margins, size, depth etc, and when i get the results then i need to discuss you with dr middleton, to see what he wants to do".... if they had seen me at the time my app was they could have rang northampton to talk to them, but no cause it was coming up for 6pm it ws too late.... gggrrrrrrr.....
then she says "we need to scan you, to see if it has spread any further, but as you are pg then i'm not sure how it will be done" i have previously discussed this with my onc and i already know that the only deffinate way of checking the lymp nodes is by ct scan using radiation, and that isn't possible..... she said usually it takes 3 weeks for a scan and then they will send me an app after that, are they taking the pi$$ or what....??? she then went on to say that as it has returned depending on if it has spread further, or not will determine wether they treat it in a curing or preventative way... or if neither is safetly possible it will be a case of watch and wait... but in either case i will have to get past 24 weeks for lo to stand a chance, if the treatment options are too risky for little bear.....
i am so angry and stressed, i had so hoped that today i would get some deffinate answers so that i'm not living with the uncertainity anymore, but here i am still in limbo, it's the not knowing that is seriously driving me mad.....
i need to find a way to de-stress and try to calm down i am so frustrated angry and worried, i'm sure they get some thrill out of watching us stew and worry.... the only good thing is that when i see them next i'll be about 20 wks so i am slowly getting closer to the sefety point for little bear, i know the longer lo stays snug in there the better, but if all goes tits up and they have to deliver lo early it will have a chance......
what the hell am i going to do now, just sit and wait...... and wait............ and wait................. gggrrrrrrrr,
i can't stand it anymore i've had enough..... 
thankyou to all who have posted and all who sit quietly on the fence....
a very very stressed alex...... and little bear..... xxxxxxx
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27/10/08 21:30
bump hope u ok alex n bear xx
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27/10/08 20:07
bump
any news hunni
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27/10/08 17:06
really hope you get the news you want xxxxxxxxxx
its 5.05pm so hopefully your on the way home with a smile
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27/10/08 16:34
thinking of you hun hope it's good news xx
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27/10/08 16:16
Thinking of you x Good luck xx
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27/10/08 16:14
Just wanting you to know I am thinking of you hun and hoping and praying like mad for you and little bear that you may be listening to some good news!
Massive hugs (((HUGS)))
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27/10/08 15:50
Hope everything goes well.
Melissa
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27/10/08 13:44
Good Luck sweetheart, you are in my thoughts.
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27/10/08 13:40
Goodluck hun thinking of you xxxxxxxxx
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27/10/08 11:41
good luck alex and lil bear hope its good news will be thinking of you sweetie xxxxxxx
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27/10/08 11:36
4 1/2 hrs and seriously s**t**g myself.....
aaaaaarrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrggggggggggggggggggggggghhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh......!!!!!!!!!!
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27/10/08 09:49
good luck hunni will be thinking of u. keepin everythin crossed
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27/10/08 09:44
Good luck Alex and Little Bear will be thinking of you hope all goes well xxx
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27/10/08 09:36
morning ladies... thankyou so much for your kind words, let's hope that all that good luck brings me some happy news....
i hardly slept all night, now i've got a tired headache and i feel very anxious...... i had horrid dream that i lost my little bear and there was no 1 about to help and i was holding my baby in my hands, and was so beautiful and perfect.... i couldn't go back to sleep after that, so i just t*** and turned all night....
6 1/2 hrs left to find out our fate.....
thankyou.... xxxxxxxxxxxx
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27/10/08 09:14
Only just found this thread. Good luck for today, u r such a brave lady and going thru a hard time, so dont beat urself up about ur feelings. I do hope its good news today but u seem like such a strong women that u will get thru it. I read all ur messages and its heartwarming to know that u put ur baby b4 urself. Who knows why some people get a hard deal in life and others who dont even want babies can pop them out like there is no tomorrow. What I do know is that u will love ur baby so much and not take him/her for granted.
My df was diagnosed with the big C 2 yrs ago. He had a mole removed from the top of his head and he had a skin graft from his leg. Everytime we go for the check up I am so worried they may find something, but they havent so far. Many people fight the big C and as u r so strong I am sure u will as well.
I do really hope its good new today xx
hi ladies... i am worried sick, 3 days ago i started spotting first brown then pink then red. i always go by how i feel and i've still got sickness extreme tiredness and all but after 6 mc/mmc's i am worried... my gp has arranged a scan for me tomorrow, i sure hope all is well as we go away on sat..... atleast i'll know if hubby's dream came true......!!!!!
to top it off i had an app with my plastic surgeon this morning, to check my scar from the malignannt melanoma i had removed, and my lymph nodes in my groin an knee.... well all is not good....!!!!! i mentioned to him that a lump had appeared on the scarred area.... he looked at it and felt it and explained that it is exactly the sort of lump that they look for, and that it needs to be whipped of as soon as, they've booked me in for the 5th.... so they can biopsy it....
i feel like lightening has struck 2x... i was between 6-7 wks last pg when the skin clinic doctor took 1 look at my mole and told me it was coming off asap as without a doubt it was cancerous, which the biopsy confirmed...
i am scarred witless.... hubby keeps saying it will be fine... but that's what he said last time..... i know i should try to be positive, but i've been waiting 2yrs for the big C to rear it's ugly head, as they've told me that i am high risk of it spreading......
how can i relax and enjoy my holiday...????