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27/10/08 09:02
Will be thinking of you and your little one today hun. Praying for good news for you x
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27/10/08 08:52
Alex & little bear, sending you so many good luck vibes for you both today, I too will be thinking of you at 4pm
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27/10/08 08:49
Good luck today, I hope everything goes well and you come back and post letting us know you and baby are fine.
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27/10/08 07:22
Good luck today Alex. Let us know how you get one!!! ((((((((((HUGS))))))))))
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27/10/08 06:44
Hi, just wanted to send you all the luck in the world, I will be thinking about you, and will have everything crossed at 4pm. Take care hun, huge ((((((((((((((((((((((((hugs))))))))))))))))))))) to you and baby bear , lots of love Claire xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
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26/10/08 13:53
Alex, are you able to talk to a special nurse or anyone hun. Probably not what you want to hear, wish I could do or say something to make the situation you are in better, I really do, so just know I truly believe in positive thinking and also I will pray for you and little bear!
OK, so its returned in 2 yrs hun, but from what I have read of you, I read a lot, but don't always reply
You are a strong woman who puts her kids first and keeps thinking of others, but you know what, you are allowed to be totally selfish right now and you have to be strong for you first, please believe in yourself, I can't pretend to know what you are feeling or going through but I can only imagine and so far you are being brave and strong and you need to keep thinking positive!So its the C word, yes everyone must fear this, but it can be beaten and you have a fight on your hands for not only you and little bear but the rest of your family too hun, you and those close to you will do this together, I believe in you I really do!
Massive hugs, please do not bottle things up, come here still and poor out your feelings, be they good or bad, positive or negative, because at least here you know you can say whatever you feel!
Please rant at the unfairness of life hun, that is only natural!
I am here, though not visable on this area of Bounty much at the mo, but I am here everyday and night and if ever you do need a ear or shoulder, I am happy to be there for you hun, sending you my love and prayers and positive thoughts and good luck for tomorrow at 4pm
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Sadie xxx
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26/10/08 13:02
ladies thankyou.... its not the radcliffe hunni i go to it's the churchill hospital in oxford, the cancer hospital... the onc i see there i was told he's the best for melanomas in pg, it's who i was referred to the 1st time round... i know i have done this 1ce, but last time it was the 1st occurence and they were happy that they had removed it and although i am high risk they hoped it would go no further.... but now that it has come back the odds of it progressing and spreading or returning again are higher... last time they told me i was high risk of relapsing in 5yrs... i made it 2 whoop de do.....
i am seriously seriously pooping it.......!!!!!!!!!!
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26/10/08 12:41
Alex, just wanting you to know, I am going to pray for you and little bear hun!
Please try to stay as calm as possible and remember you have done this once, you can do it again and beat it!
I am guessing you are going to the John Radcliffe in Oxford, if you are then you ought to know they are fantastic and should look after you very well hun! Thats where I had my babies and although a bit of a trek its worth it as its such a top hospital!
Wishing the best of luck for tomorrow
but most importantly, wishing you serene calmness and a inner strength that will amaze your oh and yourself!Massive hugs to you and your little bear, Sadie xxx
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26/10/08 11:30
i have everything crossed for you and i so hope you get good news, im sending you all the
in the world, what times your app tomorrow? anyway ill be here waiting to hear your good news, all the best hunni -
26/10/08 11:19
well the wait is almost over only 1 more sleep to D day thank god, i can't stand the suspense any longer..... 1 more night and i will find out if me and little bear will be given a reprieve or if our futures will be shadowed by a dark cloud......
i appologised to oh last night as i was on a planet of my own, he cooked dinner for me, it was only kiev chips and spaghetti but it tasted good as i didn't have to cook it.... sickness is still getting me at times...
hopefully i won't need to post on here tomorrow if its good news you'll hear me shouting from the roof tops... lol.... if it's bad news then i'll be back on line when i can....
i am terrified of what my onc is going to say.......... absolutely pooping myself..... i'm on my own little planet again today there is no 1 there just me and the ugly C..... i feel sorry for those around me i'm stressed and grouchy, i can't even stand my own company, but unfortunately there is no way i can avoid that.... part of me doesn't want to go tomorrow but i know i have to.....
i am so hoping dr onc will tell me what i want to hear but what is the likely hood of that..........?????
oh well 4pm tomorrow i'll know either way.........
alex and little bear 16+2...
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24/10/08 19:33
well ladies only 3 more sleeps... i had put it to the back of my mind till today, only i can feel myself getting stressed.... god help me over the weekend i'll be absolutely pooping it by monday......... i'll be a right mess.....
why do they have to keep me in suspense..???
atleast my car will be fixed for the journey, 1 of the engine mounts came off and i won't drive it..... hubby has been using mine as his gearbox has gone.... so when he finishes work tomorrow he'll take it to our mechanic.... i could just imagine getting half way to oxford and the engine falling out on the m40.... lol
oh well just keep waiting for d day, to see what doc onc has instore......?????
alex and little bear 16wks....
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24/10/08 15:19
bump
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21/10/08 22:35
only 6 more sleeps to find out little bears and my fate......!!!!!!!!
had mw app today and heard babys heart beat......
alex 15+4
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17/10/08 13:05
the thing is when i went for my results i knew what they were going to say..... but this time i have no idea what my onc will say..... last time it was just wait and see, but i think now its back again then he won't say the same again.... i hope that he will but i doubt it....
the only bonus is that the kids aren't at school that week so it'll be easier to get some 1 to have them as we will be late back...
it's going to drive me bonkers waiting to see what dr onc has in store for me...
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17/10/08 12:51
ive just cum across ur thread and just wanted 2wish u and little bubs al the luck in world il keep my fingers crossed 4 u take care xx
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17/10/08 12:36
thank god atlast youve got you date of app......i know its easier said than done but try not to get yours self in too much of a state you dont want the stress to affect the baby......
is there nothing you can do during the day to keep you mind off it???? i bet your house is already spotless with trying to keep busy!!
but you know by now were all here for you and thinking about you and little baby
kayla
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17/10/08 12:20
well my postie loved me today.... they have moved my app forward to 27th oct at the ridiclious time of 4pm.... it wouldn't be to bad if it was only 10 miles away but i've got to go from northants to oxford.....
im already starting to worry now.... i didn't chase up the app i suppose it was a case of denial.... but now i've got it the panic is starting to set in... i can feel myself getting stressed again.... and the app is 10days away, what the hell am i going to do between now and then to calm me down, i'm going to be a mumbling bumbling nervous wreck by then.....
HELP................
alex and little bear 14+5
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15/10/08 20:25
fingers crossed for tomorrow
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15/10/08 20:20
my postie don't love me..... -
13/10/08 12:36
postie didn't bring me app.....lets see what she brings tomorrow....
hi ladies... i am worried sick, 3 days ago i started spotting first brown then pink then red. i always go by how i feel and i've still got sickness extreme tiredness and all but after 6 mc/mmc's i am worried... my gp has arranged a scan for me tomorrow, i sure hope all is well as we go away on sat..... atleast i'll know if hubby's dream came true......!!!!!
to top it off i had an app with my plastic surgeon this morning, to check my scar from the malignannt melanoma i had removed, and my lymph nodes in my groin an knee.... well all is not good....!!!!! i mentioned to him that a lump had appeared on the scarred area.... he looked at it and felt it and explained that it is exactly the sort of lump that they look for, and that it needs to be whipped of as soon as, they've booked me in for the 5th.... so they can biopsy it....
i feel like lightening has struck 2x... i was between 6-7 wks last pg when the skin clinic doctor took 1 look at my mole and told me it was coming off asap as without a doubt it was cancerous, which the biopsy confirmed...
i am scarred witless.... hubby keeps saying it will be fine... but that's what he said last time..... i know i should try to be positive, but i've been waiting 2yrs for the big C to rear it's ugly head, as they've told me that i am high risk of it spreading......
how can i relax and enjoy my holiday...????