Hun, not been on in a while and just seen your post.  Hoping you managed to sort something out in the last couple of days.  Big hugs xx

i think we're spliting up cos i dont know what to do anymore. i've singlehanded been trying to mend our relationship on my own, trying to try find time to spend together, romantic things, talking to him trying to get emotion out of him to the point i had high blood pressure and a nose bleed from the worry and stress. i love him to bits but i cant keep being walked over because of my feelings i need to be strong but i dont know if i'm wrong prob cos my self esteem so low now.

i understand he has to work long hours and there are 2 directors in his buisness so if they where both working same long hours i can understand that but heres how september has gone.---  first weekend was other directors (paul) instead of wrking 2 days he got cover the first day and only worked one day. the second was micks (my dp) which instead of working with an employee worked alone as the employee had covered paul the one before. last weekend should of been split but we had phone till 5pm sunday evening!!! this weekend he woke me this morningn saying he was going in. surely if he loved us we'd be more important than his friends feelings and he'd stand up for us!!!???!!! surely it'd be easy the stand up for us if he cared. i said i couldnt carry on in a relationship where i'm second best to paul and i'd have to leave (obviously crying and upset at time) and he said fine, i'll move out until you find somewhere and of he went to work. i've tried texting him since but all i got bak was he may sleep on sofa instead.

all i want is to mean something and be loved but if i'm honest hes never going to, i've tried to talk and get through to him until i'm blue in the face but surely if i'm honest with myself if he really loved me this wouldnt be happening cos standing up for us would be natural.

neither as he made any effort with us. all i got last week after trying to talk to him was a text saying 'see i do are, missing you' which is nice but not really everything. no feelings nothing just doesnt give anything out.

what the hell do i do?