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28/10/08 21:21
27/10/08 17:05
Thanks so much Min! It makes me feel better to know somebody else can understand where I'm coming from!
I'm so pleased that you are on the same wavelength as me, it seems to be a good place to be as it really does relieve you of all the pressure that's built up over the years. I've honestly never felt happier, and if I can just manage to change my job/career then I'll feel completely at ease and totally happy with my life. I do wonder if the negativity I've felt with other aspects of my life have been a contributory factor to my TTC struggle. Who knows?! Perhaps the change of lifestyle and increased happiness will lead to that long awaited BFP. Maybe it will never happen, who knows?! But as long as I am happy with everything else in my life I think I can accept it more readily.
So here's to us and our newfound freedom from pressure! Let's enjoy life, we only get one shot at it after all!
xxxx27/10/08 14:01
Hi JFC,
Wow, congrats on the giving up smoking and new healthy lifestyle! Im most impressed. To be honest u sound just like me a few weeks ago. I started getting all healthy, doing some exercise and generallly enjoying life rather than letting the unsuccesful ttc witch drag me down to the bottom of that black hole! So there I was, skipping along (rather like u I assume) when my IVF letter to say i had reached the top of the wait list arrived. Dont get me wrong im overjoyed to get a proper chance at it but it really has tipped everything upside down. Its affected my DH, it will have a massive impact on us financially ..I cud go on but im clogging ur diary with my waffle!
What Im trying to say is that I too am hoping to start in the new yr so will be able to share my journey at the same time as u. But for now hun, keep doin what ur doin because happiness id the most important thing! And dont feel guilty for putting that first
Chat soon,
min xxx27/10/08 13:42
Hi ladies!
Soooo sorry I've been AWOL for so long! Just been busy with other stuff and not really concentrating on TTC at the mo. My next appt at Barts is 17th Nov and is a "follow up" with consultant, so he'll prob suggest IVF.
BUT. I am hoping it will be next year. I may sound fickle and a little ungrateful, but I've begun to focus on something entirely different and I'm feeling great. I'm getting fit and really enjoying it. I know it's bad considering the fertility treatment, but I was smoking until recently. I had tried to quit several times but always fell off the wagon pretty easily. Now though, I'm on day 11 and doing so well I'm totally amazed! I don't want to smoke, just have no desier whatsoever! I'm not using any patches etc, just went cold turkey! It probably helps that I've got a major job change in mind which has prompted a total fitness overhaul. I've gone nuts I tell ya! And I am loving every minute of it! I feel alive!
I know, you're wondering why the desire to have a baby wasn't enough motivation for me to do all this ages ago! Well, I don't know. I really don't. But I'm beginning to wonder if my desire for a baby was partly due to expectations?! Don't get me wrong, I've always wanted to have kids. But I've never been a particularly "maternal" woman. I guess it was just the natural next step to take, so when it didn't work it was devastating. But I think I've come to terms with it and I'm pretty confident that if it doesn't happen for us it won't be the end of the world.
Geez, I feel awful even thinking all this
, never mind saying it here to all my lovely FT ladies who've been such a tremendous support! But I guess it's time for me to just take some time out and focus on something else that can carry me through and make me happy no matter what this TTC lark does/doesn't bring.I will still go ahead with IVF, I'm not that ungrateful that I'd turn down such an opportunity. But I am hoping it will be as late as spring/summer next year before we get started. I really need some time to sort my fitness and change my career so that I can be happy with whatever life throws at me.
So, with all that in mind, I won't be on here so much, though I will pop in from time to time 'cos I like to see how you're all getting on.
I wish all of you heaps of babydust
, babyglue 
, love and happiness . And I hope you can understand why I've made the choice I have. xxxxxx2/10/08 15:17
Welcome back JFC. Glad u had a lovely holiday. Im so jealous!!
November isnt all that far off chick. Is it IVF this time?
Min xxx
30/9/08 07:52
Welcome back and your holiday sounds absolutely fab. Plenty of sun, sea and s*x
I'm sure your next appointment will be here before you know it. Time does seems to go faster when you have something to aim for iykwim.
Take care
xxx
29/9/08 19:35
Welcome back hon! Sounds like you had a fab time. I am sooooo jealous!!!
My appointment to see my cons to discuss my last BFN is next week. I felt like it was months away too, but it has come by quickly, so I'm sure your appointment will be the same.
Anyway, got to go...I'm just about to indulge in the most divine chocolate tarte.....mmmmm!!!! xxxxxxxxxxxxx
29/9/08 17:47
You lucky sausage. I bet you have a lovely tan too. I'm glad you had such a fab time and I hope your first day back at work hasn't been too traumatic.
Love Katxxx
29/9/08 13:59
Hi ladies!!
OMG, how beautiful is Agios Nikolaos in Crete?!!! It is goooooorrrgeeeoouuss!! Loved every minute there, ate sooo much I'm surprised we weren't charged for extra personal baggage, lol! 
Weather was glorious, people are wonderful and friendly, food is amazing, the place itself is stunning, generally in love with the place!! Def will go back!So, had a quick read and can't really remember what was written now! LOL! But want to say to Scarlett that I'm sorry to hear of your sad news and hope you'e doing ok. Am very pleased you are going to go ahead with treatment again in Dec tho and I will be keeping fingers and toes crossed for you!
My hospital appt with the consultant to discuss what we do next isn't until 17th November!!!!
Oh well, not much I can do about that! I'm sure the time will fly by! So IVF won't be until next year, but heym new year new beginning! Well, I have no more news really, not been home long enough to have anything happen, lol! Will try and pop on individual threads later, work a bit busy!
Love to all! xxxx
24/9/08 18:00
Hey JFC,
Are you back off your jolies yet???? How was Crete? Hope you had a fab time. I can't wait to hear all of your stories....come on spill the beans young lady!!!!!
I haven't really been on Bounty much recently and I know you said you had probs accessing my diary again, so thought I would give you an update here. I've had quite a lot going on to be honest. I had a death in my family so was busy with that and the funeral. Then I also had my little nephews 1st birthday party which was brillant fun!!! Work has been really busy but I think my existing contract is going to come to an end, so I may be out of work at the end of October. In terms of treatment, I think we will start again in December. Still need to discuss it properly.
Anyway, hope you're ok hon xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
16/9/08 15:32
Have a fabulous holiday JFC I hope you come back full of beans. What is it with your back being bad after treatment? Very peculiar.
Have a great time you deserve it Jo x
15/9/08 19:51
Have a wonderful holiday and over indulge until your heart is content. I hope the lovely sunshine helps your back so you're feeling fab when you get back.
xxxxxxx
15/9/08 14:34
have a fab holiday. i'll keep my eye on the bbc news site for news of chaos and deportations in crete lol. i have heard that the best back treatment is relaxing in the sun with regular c***tail intake and make sure you keep your tummy permenantly full of good food too, its the only true back cure.
have fun, katxxx
ps. my big news is that my chickens have called of their strike action and are laying eggs again ....... not much happens in my world hehe.
15/9/08 13:43
Hi ladies!
Well, I've been awol again due to my back, again! Grrrr!
Still, at least it happened BEFORE my hols not during!!So, tomorrow I'm off on my jollies, look out Crete, lol! So I just wanted to pop by and say hi to everyone!
Jo - great that you saw/heard heartbeat, sooooo exciting!!
MrsC - next scan soon!!! Very exciting!!
Slimchick - good luck with the stimming (is that right?! sorry if not!) and I'll keep fingers crossed for you!
Scarlett - can't get into your diary again so not sure what your plans are but sending you lots of
and am thinking of you xxKat - any news in your part of the world?! Thanks for always making me chuckle these last few months, hugely appreciated!
Tinkersmummy - am praying AF doesn't show and that your IUI was 1st time lucky!!
And if I've missed anyone, I am sooooo sorry, brain has gone on hols a day early!
You've all been so fantastic and I'm grateful to all of you for being so supportive and generally just fabulous!
See you when I get back next Weds! xxxx
11/9/08 21:27
Hi JFC,
Just dropping by to make sure you are ok. Am thinking of you hon. Have a good weekend.
Love and kisses,
Scarlett xxxxxxxxxxxxx
11/9/08 09:38
I hope you are doing OK.
and (((HUGS))) Katxxx7/9/08 17:18
Hi honey sorry not posted any earlier been away for the weekend... really gutted about your news lots of hugs coming your way.... I do admire you lots and keep smiling when you can i think all the ladies on here should take a leaf out of your book and keep your head up and be strong.. Anyway have a fab holiday don't get too brown and i bet you will miss the rain (NOT).. xxxx
7/9/08 10:12
Hi Honey,
I'm so sorry for not posting on your diary sooner...I've just been taking some time out of Bounty since my BFN. I'm absolutely gutted to hear about your BFN...I'm so sorry hon. I hope you have treated yourself to something nice over the weekend to take your mind off all of this TTC business.
Thats great news about your holiday...its so nice to have something to look forward to. I'm sure you will have a fab time.
Love and kisses,
Scarlett xxxxxxxxxxxxxx
5/9/08 20:11
Oh hunny, I'm sorry it didn't work for you this time (((((((((((HUGS))))))))))). What a devastating blow for you and dh.
I think Crete really does need to watch out for your arrival
Only joking hun - you go and have an absolutely whale of a time and overindulge in everything - if I can be sick off alcohol then so can you I do like how you have a positive outlook (I think it helps). You will have your dream, unfortunately some of us have to wait a little longer than others but boy, will it be worth it!!
xxxxxx
5/9/08 17:13
Aaaw, Jo! I love you!
You make me smile. I may still have a little sob tonight, once the alcohol has taken hold, lol! But mostly I like to think positive on days like this. I've suffered from depression in the past (over very separate issues, looong story!) and I never want to walk that road again. So I do what I can to keep me from going there again. It could be why I'm a little whacky, lol!
Through suffering from that depression I realized I had so much good in my life and I wasn't going to let anyone or anything spoil it. One of my crazy dreams actually got me back on track. It made me see that wallowing wasn't helping me, I was only making myself feel worse. So I just sucked it up, put on a smile and went out there to get my life back. I put the past behind me, forgave some ppl who may/may not have deserved forgiveness. I can't allow bad feeling to take over my life. It worked a treat and I have never looked back. Anyway, preach over, lol! I'm off in a mo so you ladies have yourselves a wonderful weekend! xxxx
The just best news to read is that a long term ttc'er is happy, for whatever reason. You sound very on top form and I'm going to read your thread over and over on the off chance its catching lol.
Congrats on giving up smoking and being so healthy - its a sign you are truely happy if you have managed it so easily. Now tell us about your career change, it all sounds very exciting.
Long live your happiness JFC.