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3/12/08 20:53
31/10/08 22:05
My 3 precious angels:
Angel 1: Lost in May 2008 at 8 weeks 5 days but in mummys tummy for 12 weeks- due 22nd November 2008.
Angel 2: Lost in July 2008 at 4 weeks 6 days- due 30th March 2009.
Angel 3: Lost in September at 5 weeks- due 4th June 2009.
xxxxx
31/10/08 22:00
***>my 2 precious angels:
angel 1- lost in may 2008 at 8 weeks 5 days but in mummys tummy for 12 weeks- due 22nd november 2008
***> ***> angel 2- lost in july 2008 at 4 weeks 6 days- due 30th march 2009***> ***> ***> ***>angel 3- lost in september 2008 at 5 weeks- due 4th june 2009.***> ***> ***> ***>xxxxx***>
***> ***>31/10/08 20:23
my lovley baby boy Jordan David Cooper born at 30 wks 2 days sleeping 17th sept 2008 mummy and daddy miss you and love you so much! you'll always be our boy! xxx
27/10/08 00:40
I mc at 9wks but he/she sadly past away at 6wks on 4th october 2008 miss u sweety21/10/08 02:05
For all my angel babies, I miss you all so terribly much. Please take good care of one another til I can be with you.
Rhiannon, lost at 6 weeks, October 1993 Hope, lost at 9 weeks, February 2008 Faith, lost at 5 weeks, April 2008 Annchi and Sachi, my beautiful twins, lost at 12 weeks, October 2008 You will always be in my thoughts, and I'll never forget you. Watch over Daddy, he's hurting do much. All my love, always. Mummy xxxxx
16/10/08 16:36
To My Very First Angel Baby, today October 16th is the One Year Anniversary of the day they told us you were ectopic my poor sweetheart, this time last year I was rushed into emergency surgery and they took you away from me, along with my fallopian tube, as that is where you were. Even though you were healthy, you were just in the wrong place. As my First Angel Baby I will always remember you and today of all days your loss feels like it was only yesterday. I think of you always my Angel, especially on this day, as I do your second Angel Brother or Sister, who would be due today, Stay with me my baby, I will love you always xxx
To My Second Angel Baby, today is the 16th of October and you were due to arrive today, we should be welcoming you into the world kicking and screaming and so so happy to meet you after the heartache of losing your first Angel Brother or Sister. I miss you every day sweetheart and wish so much that I could have felt you inside me for 9 whole healthy months before meeting you today, your due date (or before/after) I think of you all the time and hope you are with me keeping me and Daddy strong, I love you xxx
To my Third Angel Baby, Mummy misses you so so much, you should be inside me now kicking around and making a nuisance of yourself, you should be aged 18 weeks and 4 days today, and we should be so happy and excited about meeting you around your due date on the 1st of March next year, I wish so much you could have stayed with me and Daddy, we love you so much my darling, please keep me strong. xxx
To My Fourth Angel Baby, my little sweetheart, your loss still feels so raw, not so very long ago, they took you away from us on September the 4th, along with my last fallopian tube and my natural fertility. It was the hardest day of my life so far, losing you my angel, as you were ectopic like your first Angel Brother or Sister, you were healthy but just in the wrong place, it still hurts so so much and today of all days, you should be aged exactly 12 weeks, Daddy and I should be feeling more confident and happy that you stayed with us and we should be seeing you today on a scan, kicking around and your heart beating strong. You are gone too my darling, and I miss you oh so much. I really hope your brothers and sisters are looking after you and you are happy with all the other Angel Babies playing up in the clouds. Stay with me too my sweetheart please, Mummy needs all of your help right now to keep on going, today has been the hardest day to get through after losing you all and I feel like giving up completely, I need your help to stay strong and face IVF next year so we can try to have a brother or sister for you all in this world. xxx
All our love, always my darlings, Mummy & Daddy xxxx
14/10/08 17:21
Hello my beautiful angel Charlie,
I just wanted to say thank-you,
So many things have been going right for once and i have a weird feeling that you've been smiling down on me from heaven. I hope you've been taking care of little Zack, his mummy Emma has been such a good friend too me, so i hope you've been teaching Zack to use his wings. Not a day goes by that i don't think of you, i miss you so much every single day, you should've been almost six months old now and i always think about the things you'd be doing.
I've been given a tablet that may possibly help me have another baby, but please don't ever think a new baby will replace you, you'll always be my 3rd child, a new baby will be the 4th. There's a special place in my heart that's just for you, i love you so much. xxx
Sleep tight little star,
5/10/08 22:45
To my three angels
My second angel baby, Its coming close to what would of been your 2nd birthday Dec10th, and in Jan would be the 2nd birthday of you my last baby angel two months when I just put on a front and try and make Christmas a happy time for your two brothers and sister, I cant let them see my pain and tears, Some days I just get on and i'm happy and full of fun on the outside but you know that inside that shell there is a broken heart, I know you are safe with your aunty Tina, it would of been her birthday on the 10th of Dec as well, I hope you all have a party I know she will be looking after you all, she was my best friend, she will take very good care of you. I wish I could hold you all, I wish I could of known you all, a time will come when mummy and daddy can be with you and hold your hand and wipe your tears, can you give mummy the strength to carry on ttc a baby brother or sister, its so hard, you take care of each other and give Aunty Tina a big kiss and cuddle from me and daddy i'm sending you all floaty kisses I love you soooooo much it really does hurt. All my love angels.xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx
5/10/08 21:55
to my angel baby today should have been the day you arrived but alas that was not meant to be, i have spent the day thinking positively and enjoying how my life has moved on and got better since i lost you. we have moved into a lovely area and the new house is so warm and cosy, your brother has started school and is loving it, he's so smart and funny. daddy has a great new job and mummy finally found the courage to leave the horrible school were she was being bullied and treated so badly, and has been enjoying working for the agency. i now have a job that will last at 6 months and the pay is so great. mummy and daddy are getting on so well and are no longer fighting. mummy is getting on better with grandma and so is daddy. i don't know why i'm telling you this as you know all of this already as you made it happen.
*** class="comment">i know that it isn't always perfect but i feel that i am so much more in control of my own life than i did when i first found out i was expecting you. i know now why you had to go and whilst we'll always remember you i now know that you were never meant to stay with us on earth but that you were alway meant to be our beautiful guardian angel watching over us every day and helping us to make a better life for ourselves. so on the day we should've met i wanted to say to
thank you for making our lives better.
^i^ goodnight my sweetheart mummy, daddy and toby.
***>8/9/08 17:13
my two boy's i lost you on new years eve 1994 i was 15 week's i still think about you both and every year i send my love more than ever .
thank you for looking after your sister who is 11 and now me at 25+4 and keeping your brother or sister safe in me i love and miss my big boy's as much now as then
all my love forever and allways
mummy xxxxxxxxxxx*** alt="" src="http://my.bounty.com/smiley/msn/heart.gif" />
7/9/08 21:39
Hello angel, sorry I havent written to you for a while. I know you are looking after your mummy as Im 13 weeks tomorrow and your little brother or sister is doing fine. Your big brother started big school on Monday and is loving it. We are so proud of him and Im sure you are too, as you know things are harder for him than other children. I love you angel never forget that xxx
7/9/08 21:24
to my wonderful son jordan
mummy lost u on xmas day 2007 and now that time is fast approaching and to be honest i dont no how i am going to handle that day at all
you will no because u have been watching over me mummy got pregnant last month and was so happy that you was gonna have a brother or sister to look after that ws to be short lived cos on mummy birthday i had some bad news i was told your brother or sister did not make it
so please please jordan look after your brother or sister and keep them safe cos mummy cant
she wants you to no she loves you so so much and not a minute in the day goes by when she does not think of you or miss you i wish i could be with u i would give anything just to hold you and kiss you and tell you i love you .
but deep down i no you are watching over me and keeping me safe so this i ask of you please keep your little brother or sister safe and look after them .
untiil we meet and i can look after you both and do what a mummy should do i am asking you to take the lead
jordan sweetie what can i say how will i make it i just dont no how do i lve without you i just dont no please be with me everyday in all i do and in all i say
mummy been upsetting daddy and rowing with him this is because i miss you and dont no how to handle it i love daddy so so so much and cant be without him but i keep pushing him away and now i look in the mirror and dont see mummy just a person and now what just happened as knocked mummy for six and now she justs want to be with her angels and not be here but my time on life is just not up and i would have done anything for you to be here and me be gone
jordan my life the life i cant stop missing and crying over
i miss u so so so much but please look after your brother or sister for mummy
u will always play such a big life in my life spo please keep me and daddy safe
and please help me to stop arguying with daddy for no reason
and please help mummy in getting pregnant and help her to have the take home baby she wants so so much and for you my angel you role will be to look after your brother or sister
but please please never think you will ever be forgotten u played such a big role in mummy and daddys life
miss you more and more evryday day
sleep my little angel
forever in our hearts
mummy and daddy.xxx
7/9/08 18:02
I can't believe I am writing this, To my Fourth Angel Baby....we lost you on Thursday and I can't believe you are gone. I felt you there inside of me for 6 wonderful weeks and I truly thought you were gonna make it Sweetheart, my hopes were as high as the sky, I thought nothing else could go wrong - you were going to be our little miracle. They took you away from me and I fought against it even as I was being put to sleep, they had to hold me down, I wanted you so much Sweetheart I didn't want them to take you from us, I wanted you to stay. You have gone to be with your 3 angel brothers and sisters, I hope they were there to meet you and I hope they held your hand. Mummy is in a complete mess, I don't know what to do and I don't know how I will cope, I am in so much pain from surgery, but the true pain of all is knowing we never got to meet you or your brothers and sisters. Daddy and I face an uncertain future my Angels, we will need a lot of help if we are to have a brother or sister for you all in this world, we can't have a baby on our own now - I don't know if I can do it, I don't know if I will cope, it is all so scary and daunting to think about right now, I can't handle all the pain. Please be with me my beautiful Angels, please try to keep me and Daddy strong. I was born to be a Mummy and I am a Mummy without my babies in my arms, my heart is broken and I don't know how I will go on. Please help me get through these next few months my babies, please be with Daddy and me.
We love you always my angels, thinking of you all, always. Look after eachother until I can get there.....
Mummy & Daddy xxxxxxxxxxx
5/9/08 09:34
Hi Charlie,
I've had some sad news today, My friend Emma from DIA had a baby boy last night but he was born sleeping, please could you look after little Zack for his mummy and daddy...
I love you and miss you so much, i wish i could just hold you even if it was just for one second, i'd give anything for that....sleep safely my beautiful angel... Mummy,
29/8/08 13:00
my darling angels mummy is missing you both so so much i just wish i could be holding our baby angel or feeling our second lil angel kicking away like you should be. miss you both so much will never ever forget you.
love you both so much xxxxxx
29/8/08 12:51
i have already left a memorial for my angel baby ruby but now would like to add her sibling.
my second angel baby, i only knew about you for a couple of weeks but it was amazing. you will never be forgotten. i hope ruby will look after you and you both stick together untill mummy can be with you both.
love you both very much mummy xxxxx
29/8/08 11:12
Hey My Angel Charlie
It's just 20 days away from the date that you left us to go to heaven....i thought as the time passed, i wouldn't get so upset when i thought of you, but the pain is just as bad as the day you left...i'm dreading that day, wondering how i'll cope, i'm sat here now with tears streaming down my face....Please could you give me a sign to show me that you're happy and at peace now so that i can try to take strength from it and get through that day...I love you and i always will, here's some big kisses from everyone XXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXXX
14/8/08 21:35
hello angel been thinking about you.. today was your big brother's birthday he was four and is so grown up. I wish you were with us so that you could experience all the love and kindness he has to share with a little brother or sister. I know he thinks of you he closes his eyes and imagines what you are doing, he knows you are safe and free from any pain he also knows that you watch over him too and you are looking out for him.....Mummy needed your help today and you gave it to me thank you my angel for making me strong....Auntie Claire's baby is due soon and Mummy finds it so hard to see the new baby growing. But you were there today with Toby and Daddy and that helped me get through...I hope that you don't mind that Mummy and Daddy want to try for another baby we will think you of always as our second baby and I know you understand how much a new brother or sister will mean to our family here on Earth and to you in heaven thank you for making mummy and daddy strong.......goodnight angel X14/8/08 20:08
Hi my angel Charlie
I've been thinking about you alot today as exactly one year ago i got my bfp, i can remember how happy i was, i couldn't stop smiling all day. Now i'm here without you and i imagine all the things you should be doing, i love you and miss you more than i could ever say, but i know you watch over us, i think i can feel your spirit or at least i hope i can. Give Nan, Grandad, Hughie and Bonzo a big hug for me and let them know that i miss them too. Speak soon my little star, xxxxxxxxxxx
Hello My Angel Charlie
Well it's nearly christmas and you should've been here by now, in fact you would've been almost 8 months old, i bet you would've loved the lights on the tree. A small shadow keeps passing me, is that you?? I believe it is. I can't believe it's been almost 15 months since you got your wings and flew off to heaven, we still miss you so much every day, are Nanny and Grandad taking care of you?? Does Nanny still shout at Grandad for going on the slot machines?
I have to go now baby, but i'll talk to you again very soon, here's a big {{{{{{{{{{{{hug}}}}}}}}}}}} and lots of
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