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20/10/08 18:15
20/10/08 10:17
thanks girls
yes i am a horny little devil unfrortunately hubby does not share my drive and i know its beginning to create a distance between us. he's happy for cuddles and stuff but i need that physical feeling been like that since i started having sex. he stated last night that he thinks within 5 years we won't be together as were not compatible in the bedroom and unfortunately i also couldn't disagree. i think i'd hoped he'd buck his ideas up and he thought i'd drop my drive once we had moved in together and settled down. now not sure what the future holds in that respect now
glad you two girls are ok. theresa honey hope your ok xxxx
20/10/08 08:58
Morning ladies, just dropped Alex at school, I can't believe I still had to wake him this morning even though he was in bed at 6..20pm!!!!!! He really must have needed the sleep! Half term next week so a stress free week hopefully!
Sarah, I didn't have Nuchal, just the triple bloods but mine came back 1 in 4700 so really low risk there.
I was looking at my notes last night and discovered the baby is head down but not engaged yet! Good of mw to tell me these things!
Lynds ha ha ha you horny devil you! I'm the opposite really, can live without the sex but since we've avoided it I've had plenty of dreams about it! Strange that! So much good luck the clomid has worked this time.
Theresa good luck for tomorrow hun, we'll all be thinking of you.
20/10/08 08:26
Morning all
Hope we all had a nice weekend.....mine was pretty quiete, as usual!
Sorry didnt realise that u actually had pco Lynds. At least there're are loads of other options, should clomid fail, but heres lots of
that it wont & this will be your month hun. Its quite nerveracking isnt it, waiting each month to see if this will be your time....U do make me laugh, u are a randy little so & so. LOL.Ive got sooo much work to do, just dont know where to start today! Im really finding it too much, loads of pressure!! Work load is too demanding.
All the best theresa - think u might be back at work today? im hoping you're not feeling too uncomfortable about it - u shouldnt have to. Good luck hun. xx
U ok shelley? - oh wot did your nuchal thing come back as again? i know you were 'low' risk like me. Just wondering as we're the same age.
Best get going on some work, talk later girls xxx
19/10/08 22:36
hi girls
shelley sorry to hear of your backache must be pressure of baby
sarah glad your test results were low and your safe. unfortunately i'm not normal i have a left poly cystic ovary so as you can see i'm on clomid so unless i take the drug and it works i have no way of getting pg. if the 3 moths supply i have doesn't work then we've got the next steps to take which would probably be IUI and at the latest IVF. my cousin has it so was expecting with the weight gain that i could've developed it.
got 8 days till af due and still getting the odd cramp but other than that i'm fine. unfortunately been majorly horny for over 24 hours to hubby had to relieve me before i tore the house down lol
yeah i was working today on 10-4 and i've eaten properly again so no worries there shelley i promise i'll try and be a good girl and eat my food from now on xxxx
19/10/08 20:11
Evening ladies
Sarah, fab news about your results coming back low risk! you can relax about that part being over now, it was very worrying for me but the MW made it worse I think!
No Alex doesn't really talk about the other boy much but I have told him time and again, if he comes near you tell him to go away and if he tries to touch you, push him away. Weekends are the only stress free days atm! Saying that Alex has been a pain tonight, he messes about with his tea every night but tonight he refused to eat it and screamed the house down so we sent him to bed at 6.20pm! He went striaght to sleep but it was pitch black so nothing for him to see or do!
Yes the backache was horrible but mine was more mid back and to the side, it's gone now thankfully. How is your back to day? Sounds like you had a busy day yesterday.
Lynds how are you today, have you been working? Hope you have been a good girl and eaten properly today?
Theresa hope you're ok hun? What you been up to this weekend?
19/10/08 11:45
Hi all,
Oh dear sorry you've got backache too shelley ....horrible isn't it. I had it really bad yesterday, took joshua to a bday party & probably spent nearly 2 hours standing up, so towards the end it almost felt as thou my legs were gonna give away! was in pain for the rest of the day.
Is alex ok, does he mention that boy much? hopefully he's not letting it ruin his weekends etc. too much. Lucky u having time off!! when u on maternity leave again?
Oh poor u lynds, alot of crap going on. I know it must be really disheartening every month, ttc. Last year, it did take us 6 months until i got my first BFP (& i was 35 so really panicking!!). & towards the end i was getting worried / concerned / depressed about it. & it does completely take over your life, its all u can think of. & i know you've been trying for even longer, so its alot tougher for u. But they've not actually found anything wrong have they ? So it MUST happen v soon. Got everything crossed for u that it'll be this month. (((hugs))) Even worse if you've got crap/worry going on at work.
U ok theresa? Always thinking of u hun. Let us know how u are. i know you're due for your erpc on tues. xxx
Got the results of my nuchal on fri - am 'low' risk at 1; 760. So do count myself v lucky, especially considering my age. They also dated me as 2 days earlier than my dates, so was 14 weeks fri just gone.
Not doing alot today, just abit of gardening...........god its gonna kill my back thou!! Am planting the bulbs that i bought the other week.
have a lovely day girls xxxx
18/10/08 20:39
Hi girls,
Lynds awww you have to eat properly hun, you may already have conceived so please eat properly from today - promise! Hope work wasn't too bad for you?
Theresa how are you, what are you up to this weekend, any plans? Or just taking it easy?
How about you Sarah, any news from your tests yet?
All ok here, got a bit of backache atm so got lots of cushions around me! Looking forward to a lie in tomorrow, hopefully Alex will sleep in! Only got next week to work and then it's half term and we're all off for a week together, really looking forward to that.
Alex has a fancy dress disco at school next month so we need to find him a good outfit for that!
18/10/08 10:17
hi girls
shelley thank god yesterday for uneventful for alex. this troubled boy needs dealing with by his authority figures including his mother that he can't do what he's doing to these other boys. he sounds like he lacks discipline and seeing as schools these days don't deal with discipline the old fashioned way he's not learning that he's doing wrong or he's just a naturally bad naughty boy. as much as your angry its the school and his mother at fault. hope this gets dealt with once and for all honey and you can relax for alex
well i'm working as we speak its one of my working weekends and as usual were busy. still worried for my job but trying to calm down as its not helping my health. i'm not eating well if i'm honest but got a tesco delivery today and i'm going to make sure i eat properly from today. work is still on my mind but going to try and relax and put it to the back of my mind. i'm feeling a bit better today in all honesty although i could still do with a good cry!! here's hoping its a bfp this month xxxxx
theresa honey hope your having a good weekend and i assume you'll be visiting your angels over the weekend my thoughts are with you for morgan and ashleigh honey xxxxx
17/10/08 20:20
Hi girls, thank you all for your advice. What I can't understand is why they don't take me seriously when I tell them what's been happening at school yet when dh goes and tells them he gets taken seriously! The Headmaster took Alex aside and asked about yesterdays incident and told him he must tell his teacher everything. Today thankfully was uneventful!
Theresa I would be happy for you to smash windows! Go for it!
I also overheard some of the parents talking outside school today (with kids in Alex's class) and another boy had had his bottom pinched by another boy and left 2 prominent marks! Mmmmmm wonder who could've done that!!!!!!!
Theresa you do what you think is best for you and what you;re most comfortable with regarding your surgery. You will be in very good hands hun. We will all be thinking of you on Tuesday.
Sarah awwww could you take some time out and go on sick leave for a while? I suppose it depends on how they pay you for being off, I just get SSP whereas dh gets full pay for 6 months! Try to relax when you can.
Lynds your reflexologist sounds great, wow I didn't know they could tell so much. All sounds very positive though. I really hope the 2nd course of Clomid has worked it's magic for you, you deserve it.
Have a good weekend girls xxxxxxx
17/10/08 19:52
hi girls
i agree with the rest of the girls shelley this needs pushing passed the school to the governors and ofstead too as its so unfair on poor alex no wonder he's upset its going to get to the stage when he won't want to go to school.
sarah i agree it maybe best to go to docs and see if he can sign you off so you can rest your back you sound like your really struggling to get around.
theresa i agree if your comfortable with the consultant then you stick with what your doing you deserve the best treatment right now.
well abdominal pain is still here but its dull. went to reflexologist today and she can tell i'm down just by touching my feet i've told her its because of my job which she realises but also recognises that i'm a positive forward person and not the way i usually am and gave me advice on relaxing and made me promise to eat more. she states there's no movement in my ovaries but i do think i have late last weekend or monday. she says something has moved down and agrees with me that we can see a swelling in my ankle where your womb is so she says there's a chance it could be this month but like me doesn't want to say that. i'm back in 2 weeks and i'm due end of october so only 10 days or so to go till i find out if 2nd course of clomid has worked and if not onto my 3rd and last month xxxxx
17/10/08 18:36
hey x
sarah sorry your in pain, if you dont get any release get signed off for a bit hun, as i alwasy say " f*** work" lol having erpoc tuesday as my consultant can do it on that day and they know i wont let anyone else do it,
blimmin moany cow aint i, ah well...shelley where will it end! i cant believe they wont do anythng more? do you have an appointment to met with the goveners? its heartbreaking can you give him a hug for me,,,,, good job i dont know what school he goes too, i would be over the fence stringing that boy up by his private parts! or i could come and smash his parents windows? whatcha reckon? x
lynds eak all crossed,,, need a bit of good news on the thread me thinks
when is your af due?right must get on,,, not even had tea yet, love alwasy girls xxx
17/10/08 10:33
Morning all,
OMG shelley wots wrong with this boy !! no wonder you're fuming, poor u. If my child was behaving like that id be besides myself, not giving u looks, like the childs mother is. I think you're right in making a diary for it all. Why dont u think about speaking to whomever the governing body is for teachers / bullying helpline / ofstead to get some advise? especially now that alex is starting to get really upset by it all. (((hugs))) god u really dont need this now.
Thx for popping by modernmillie. Ive heard spd is really painfull, i think mines just caused by a bad back, made worse by pg. Im starting pilates on moday, am doing daily excercises etc. But its really made worse by sitting down at the laptop; this puts more pressure on the back than standing / walking. Considering thats wot my job involves most of the time, im thinking of getting signed off work.....will see how i go. Dont think this is going to be a v comfortable pg!! might get a tens machine if it doesn't get any better.
U ok theresa? when u going it for your erpc?
& hope you're feeling better lynds
xxx
17/10/08 09:05
Modernmillie thanks for popping by. Thanks for the advice regarding ds' problems at school. I went in to see his Teacher this morning who asked Alex what happened and I told her what teacher he had told yesterday. She is going to speak to the other teacher about it. As they have to be kept apart at breaks and even toilet trips, she can't understand how it happened. Up until yesterday Alex wasn't really that upset by now it's really bothering him to the point where he's aking us to make it stop. I am keeping a diary of everything that I intend to show to the board of governors if necessary. I don't understand why they're not getting professional help with his behaviour at all. If Alex was like that we'd do everything we could to sort his problems out. Normally the boy's Mum says hello etc but today she looked at me like I was scum for going to the school yet again! GRrrrrrr rant over.
16/10/08 23:20
sorry for butting in guys, just wanted to say hi and give y'all some ((((((((hugs))))))))
theresa, hey how you doing hun, silly question. sorry to hear about you having to have another op. i have left you a message in my thrapston thread lots of love.
blondie, hiya!!! i have a back injury at the mo and am finding the maternity support belt i had when i was preg a lot of help. (i'm not preg at the mo
). i had pubis symphasis dysfunction, which is caused by the softening of bones and tissues in preg, but also makes your pubic bone part too far. (didn't help with giving birth!!!) anyway, got mine off ebay.http://shop.ebay.co.uk/items/?_nkw=maternity+support+belt&_sacat
hope this link works for you x x x
shelley, i've been reading your story about that fecking little b*** at school, i can't believe it. surely behaviour like today, warrants expulsion or a suspension at least!!! it must be a real strain on you. how's your ds coping? are you getting any help from the school at all? bullying counsellor or something? sorry about all the questions.
i just wish life would get a bit easier for everyone. but i s'pose we wouldn't be the people we are now, if these things weren't sent to try us!!!
thinking of you all x x x x
16/10/08 20:34
hi girls,
theresa sorry you've got to have an erpc but at least the bleeding will stop soon after and won't be really bad for you. awwwww hun, i really pray your luck changes soon. why do the bad things always happen to the best people eh? look after yourself babe. glad your dp is being supportive in his own way.
sarah, i suffered on and off with back pain in the 2nd trimester, mind you, you do have back problems don't you. hope it eases soon for you. yep you def need a laptop girl.
lynds tons of
to you, fingers crossed those little swimmers have already done their job! well one of them at least. good luck.more trouble at school today so got to see the teacher in the morning. the little b*** followed alex into the toilet cubicle and pulled his private parts. can you believe that! i am fuming to say the least, where's it going to end. this little t*** needs removing from school. grrrrrrrrr.
16/10/08 20:02
hi girls
oh theresa honey its so nice to see you back honey we've missed you so. sorry to hear you need an erpc again honey but i can see the upside that there will be no retained products and you would be clear to start again.
sarah sorry to hear your in so much pain honey its must be awful for you its not spd aswell is it?
i started getting pains at weekend so bd'd sunday and monday here's hoping its worked although still getting abdominal pains. its eased off some now and praying it could be implantation here's hoping anyway!!!
shelley hope all is well for you and alex's nemesis isn't causing undue stress again xxxx
16/10/08 18:39
Hi all,
Awwwww theresa i really can't believe that u have to go thru another erpc. im so sorry. Its also the whole thing of being in hosp too, isnt it. When r u having it done? best to get it out of the way, i guess. & how r u 'feeling', (apart from the obvious) pregnancy hormones starting to sibside alittle?
Ive had such a bad back, all week. I damaged my back 2 years ago picking up my ds, & have been having constant osteopath app's & physio. I knew it would get worse in pg, when i get bigger, but wondering if its starting already, cos around now apparently u release a hormone called 'relaxin' which starts to soften everything. Well either way my backs been worse than ever, for the last week or so, have been in constant pain, & seems to be aggrivated by sitting down!! cos this puts pressure on the disks.....Sorry to moan but fed up with being in pain. Need to get wireless i think so that i can sit on my sofa - have to work at a desk which isn't good for my back.
Hope your both feeling better lynds. & how were things at school today shelley?
talk later girls xxx
16/10/08 16:09
hey x
aw shelley dont be daft i do get upset for you too, i cant imagine what it must feel like but im pleased they have proved they are doing something about it " at last" eak she lives three doors down must be quite arkward esp for her... yes i have my appointment its in 4 weeks and 5 days. 18th november. counting the days x
sarak " f*** work" dont worry about it. we all know more to life sweetie, i am in customer service but i have to do a small amout of selling and it is hard. did you hear about the other job yet what was that doing? please just relax babe,,,,,
hope the results come asap but like they say no news is good news xxx it will be fine x i have every faith for you xxx ash is okay well you said it you know what men are like but yes he is being supportive in his own little way xlynds all crossed this is the month, we will have a party if its the bfp eh xxx i get great pains when i ov too, only sussed that when i was doing the opks with this last pregnancy... lol
okay been hospital today had scan and i am having to have another erpoc, i kinda knew i would wit the patterns of bleeding, nothing then i bleed to the high heavens... i am just going to look at is as a nice clean out ready for my next little one x only way i can really... but boy o boy where does it end eh.
catch up over the weekend x love always girls xxx
16/10/08 12:25
hi girls
i lit a candle last night for our lost babies and i thought of us all who had lost there's seems so many of us
i'm ok the pain has died down in my side although we haven't bd'd since monday night as we've not been well either of us then last night he was too tired. i feel like pushing about it but i know it won't help. its been a difficult month and i'm not sure what the future holds for my job too.
sarah sorry to hear your behind target at work and your a star to do a sales driven job i'm all customer service myself i hate selling with a passion. work should take into account the credit crunch and lower your targets. hope you hear back about your blood test soon,
shelley glad something is at last being done and go Alex for being such a smart amazing boy he gets advanced classes he must be such a joy for you.
theresa honey your being so strong and i hope this week has been ok for you xxxxx
speak laters girls on break so posting as much as possible lol xxx
Hey x
Aw sarah so pleased it came back low risk for you...
4 weeks tomorrow then im off to see Regan... got erpoc tomorrow so just getting myself ready to go in, god i just realised this will be the 6th time i have been put to sleep, i always get worried i aint gonna wake up 
what am i like eh x
Shelley i didnt read all the posts, hope things are settling down on the alex side of things {{hugs}} x
Lynds not long now sweetie all crossed for you babe x chin up and be positive! xxx
right off now so will catch you all in a few days x love always xxx