Joboots, Whoopeewhoo, Jokeane1971 & Sp1rit`s TTC thread
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21/7/08 21:15
18/7/08 09:47
Ah Jo, bless you, it must be so difficult now that its approaching your due date, i've still got a little while to go yet, I was positive that I would be pregnant again by the time my due date came around but no such luck so far
You're far from the only worrier sweetie, I don't worry so much about not being able to get prengnant again but I do worry that I'll never have a healthy pregnancy and that i'm just going to keep on mc'ing. I think the next BFP I do get, I'll just be waiting for something bad to happen and my first scan Ithink i'll just be expecting to hear the worst.So were both on the 2ww then, I'm about 4dpo I think, so were pretty close together, lets hope we both get our BFP and can go on the journey together.
Lots of Love x
18/7/08 08:28
Ok, thats weird.
An error occured whilst my post was downloading. And whilst it posted my post, it didn't move this thread to the front.
Well hopefully this post will. lol
18/7/08 08:26
Hi ladies
I know what you mean. I do check DIJuly frequently but then have to quickly close the page cause whilst I am over the moon they are all having their babies and their little ones are so healthy, it hurts like bugger. It's hard this month as in the last week of this month I would have been having Rhys by section and then I have to face 3rd August which would have been my official due date. My friend is due the same time I would have been and I just can't face getting in touch with her. Luckily she understands and has left me to it.
Well, I am on CD15 now and going by the OPK on CD12 and the pains I had CD13 it looks like I ovulated on CD13. Well my CM stopped after that as well so must have. So am on 2DPO now. At least I had pains at ovulation this month, didn't get any last month then AF was late so does make me think that I didn't ovulate last month, but stand a better chance this month. Although does anyone else feel like 'What if the little one I lost was my last chance?, what if I can't conceive again?'. Or is it just me that feels that cause I have ovary problems? Tell me I'm not the only worrier, please. lol.
Hope you all are well and oceans of good luck to each of us and sending love to you all that we can get through the next few months with as little heart break as possible.
Jo
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16/7/08 09:03
Good Morning Ladies, I hope you are all well. Still no af for me, but got a +tive ov test on Sunday so i'm now on 2ww, at least if noyhing else happens this time, I'll at least have an idea of when to expect af.
Whoop hunni, I hope your 'reading' helps, I'm not really a massive "believer" but if it gives you something to focus on then go for it
I've been checking the dia group where I originally was, and although its a little scary to think how quickly the time has gone I still keep wishing it was happening to me, I would be thinking about maternity leave and putting final touches to babies room my mums next door neighbour is due 8 days before I would of been so I think its going to be a little hard when she has her baby 
oh well, I just have to keep focused on the future and who knows, I might of got my next BFP by then.Jo sweetie, hope you are ok. Keep in touch girls x x x
15/7/08 18:10
Hi ladies, thought I'd keep us bumped. Jo, how are you hun?? I keep thinking about how big my bump should be now and also keep looking at due in September at what all the mum to bes are moaning about and thinking it should be me. A girl I weork with had a baby girl last week. When I found out (she had a yellow bump) she had had a girlit really upset me. Dont get me wrong I dont begrusdge anyone having a healthy baby of any sex, it just hurt that she got to bring her baby home and I didn't. I am goin to have a reading done tomorrow at 4pm. I do not know whather it is a good idea or not. I was told by a physcic a few yeasrs ago he can see me with one boy. I do often think about whether I'm emant to have any more children but cannot see why I shouldn't. He could've only seen up to so far or I might have another 4 girls! I am trying not to dwell on this too much as I believe I am in control of what happens to my future. I t would eb nioce if tomorrow though Isabelle will give me a little message or something. Are any of you ladies believers in this?
Lynz, how are you hun? Had 1st AF yet? Hope not, but in a good way. An to all the ladies with babuies in your bellies, hope your feeling well? Off to do some ironing as my pile is half the size of me and cannot put it off any more
12/7/08 08:17
Hi Ladies
How are you all? Anyone due to test yet? Good luck if you are.
I am on CD9 and started getting cm so will start using opks within next couple days.
Been pretty up and down, down a lot this month as it would have been the end of this month that I would have had Rhys by section, and my official due date is the 3rd August which is looming very quickly. But I am finding it very difficult that those I knew to be due the same time as me are having their babies, but am so pleased their little ones are being born safely and healthy. Just another stage I need to get through I guess. But it's so hard.
Hope you all are ok?
Jo
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10/7/08 14:38
Well todays ov pk showed a little bit of a darker line than yesterdays
so hopefully its building up to ov, i'll be really pleased if it does, at least then I should have some idea of when to expect af, x10/7/08 14:36
Well todays ov pk showed a little bit of a darker line than yesterdays
so hopefully its building up to ov, i'll be really pleased if it does, at least then I should have some idea of when to expect af, x10/7/08 11:17
So sorry the nasty witch got you ladies
I don't have a clue where I am in my cycle, I'm CD 20 something I think, got a -tive test on monday so at least I know hormones have all gone, started doing some ov pks monday too, just so that I can hopefully get an idea of what my body is up to 
We've been getting plenty bd'ing in........well df only just got back last thursday after being away for over 3wks so it was expected
so ya never know, with any luck the witch might not get me, I won't be too upset if she does though, I think i'd feel better if i'd of had a normal cycle before I fell pg again.Sp1rit lovely to hear from you, so pleased everthing seems well, its amazing just how much pain trapped wind/constipation can leave you in. Look forward to hearing news from you scan.
to everyone x 10/7/08 10:54
Hello ladies i am so sorry neither of you got your bfp
i was so hopefull for you both and it sounded so promising!! I am ok had bad pains yesterday on one side left me feeling faint but calmed down think it may of been trapped wind or constipation tmi i know sorry.. but i think all is ok 18 days till scan and found bean hb the other day cant find it again so must of been pure luck!!!! Hope your all ok ladies and hope to catch you all soon... ((((((((hugs)))))))) 9/7/08 21:28
Evening ladies. How are we all? I am ok. Had a day whre I thought about Isabelle loads. There seems to of been mums all around me today with thier little girls and I haven't got mine
A woman who I work with text me today to inform me that she is going into hospital as her waters broke. It made me bawl. It should be me soon, it's all so unfair. Don't get me wrong I don't begrudge anyone a healthy pregnancy/baby, but at times I do think 'How come you can have yours and I can't have mine?'How are the ladies with babaies in their bellys? I am not going to concentrate on TTc this month as last month I did go a bit loopy
JoBoots hope your ok? Did you get a bear for Rhys's ashes?Night from me for now. Love to all.
Oh yeah, we have booked a cottage in the lakes for Xmas, so that has helped lighten my mood slightly.
5/7/08 18:04
Hi ladies. Sorry I didn't post yesterday. We had the groom and 3 others stay at mine the night before so it was pretty hectic. I am sorry but I'm not going to lighten the mood here, AF arrived Friday morning. I am not half as upset as I thought I would be. Not doing OPK's next month as I have a period start date to go ny now, we have a very healthy sex life and normally have sex every day anyway so heres hoping. the wedding was fantastic, we retired to our hotel rrom around 3.40 this morning so feeling a little bit rough today!
5/7/08 10:35
Jo i am sorry af came and got you she is a horrible and cruel part of our life that dashes our hopes of a bfp. I know its hard hun and soul destroying i really hope you do carry on but try not to think of it hun. I know we all desperatley want our babies in our arms safe and coming home. we will all get there soon. I know i have a bfp but i cant be happy or relax as i am so scared that this baby will not be the one and i dont think i could ever ttc again if this one decides to go and play with our angels in the clouds. I am here for you hun ((((((((((hugs)))))))))) Whoo any news as yet? Enjoy the wedding xxxx Joanna hope your ok babe xxxxx
4/7/08 08:51
Jo sweetie, I'm so sorry
please don't give up, I know it probably feels hopeless right now but once af has gone hopefully you'll feel a little better. I know it takes over your life and no matter how much you try you really can't stop it, but i'm sure it will happen for you and it'll be all worth while. Sending tons of (((((HUGS)))))Whoop hunni, how have you got on - have you tested this morning x x x
4/7/08 07:56
I knew hoping was pointless.
AF started at 3am this morning
. I am obviously gutted and so annoyed with myself that I let myself believe there is a chance I am going to get pregnant and for getting so wound up in it all. I honestly don't think I can go through all this again. It took 3 years to conceive Eddie, granted it only took 3 months with James, but that was when I started using OPK's etc before then we hadn't used contraception for so long and hadn't conceived, and then it took 16 mnths to conceive Rhys and that was using OPK's. I don't think I can go through all those months of trying and disappointment again knowing that my left ovary doesn't work properly so if I am gona conceive then its got to be through my right ovary or not at all.Just don't know what to think.
Whoo, really really hope you get your BFP. Lets have some happy news.
Jo
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3/7/08 21:04
Oh Jo, I wish so much I could make us get our BFP this month. We deserve a bit of happiness after all we've been through. I will test tomorrow and let you guys know the result, AF is due Sunday. I am feeling a bit deflated as I am letting my happiness this month ride on a BFP.Will be miserab;e as sin if get a BFN.
3/7/08 17:40
Ok, I caved and tested with a Boots Digital. A BFN. I also tested with one of my ebay cheapos as well and that was also a -ve. Think I am just gona have to sit back and wait for AF to arrive now as I am obviously not pregnant. Did I expect any different really?
Still cramping on and off though so AF must be round the corner, somewhere. I am just giving up now, it's safer that way.
Hope you get some good news though.
Jo
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3/7/08 14:11
Nope, still no AF. Was due on yesterday. Haven't tested again and won't bother now until at least the weekend. I am still cramping, but also did with all my pregnancies so no nearer whether I could be or not. Still getting tingling and hotness through my boobs, and feel pretty queasy in the mornings. But I just don't know which way I will be going. Will just have to wait and see I guess
Hope your AF does not arrive and you get your BFP very soon.
Jo
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3/7/08 13:45
Jo has AF still not arrived? I am getting AF pains. I will be absolutely gutted if she comes. I cannot think of anything else and this month have got far too hung up on TTC. My boobs are tingling like made and I still feel different but am I imagining it? I feel like I'm going mad. Tested this morning with a Clearblue and it was -ive as I couldn't wait. If I remember correctly I think I had AF pains with my 1st PG so keep thinking that. Hope soooooo much she doesn't arrive. Fingers crossed.
Evening ladies. Hopw were all as sane as can be! LOL. JoBoots, hope your ok hun? I know what you mean about our last pregnancies being our last chance. I worry soo much that it qwill never happen again for me, thats part of the reason I had my reading. I know the guiy told me he saw 1 boy, this lady could see a spirit child and tols me that my Grandma said ' Let her know that when we all pass, we pass with no ailments so she is perfect where she is now and being looked after!' Gosh, did I bawl! She was really good, and got a lot of things bang on, ther was a few things that I vouldn't relate to but hey ho. She did say she saw 2 more children for me. Either twins or two close together. Before Isabelle I only wanted 1 more child (Isabelle being that chid) but since we lost her I want 2 more and have said that I would have a very small age gap.
I know ther is a chance of it being complete nonsense, but it has made me feel a bit better and I am sleeping better since having it. She also said that she sees nothing like I have been through in my future, it all looks good in the future, apart from the occasional blip, but she said everyone gets them in life. We will have to wait and see what happens won't we???
I really hope the run up to Rhys's due date is gentle on you Jo, I am here if ever you want to chat/pm me. Sending you loadsa love and Rhys lotsa floaty kisses, and not forgetting lotsa kisses to my angel Isabelle xxxxxxxxxx