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23/11/08 12:57
23/11/08 09:08
Wow thank you for sharing your story good job they induced you when they did. So happy for you and your family. I've got a four year old DS and lost an angel in Feb still can't get pg despite trying since after the first AF. Just been referred to the hosptial to see if there us a reason why my cycles are not regular and my body is still paasing clots! It's scary but your story has inspired me to know that if i want a second child, I only ever wanted two, Then I have to the courage to keep going forward and it will happen. If I need the Docs to help then so be it. Would appreciate some advice on what the next step might be? any ideas, thanks Congratulations on your beautiful girl and enjoy her......X
22/11/08 20:28
Grr it cut off the end of my post!!! Can't remember what I wrote now, but wanted to say to all of you, never stop chasing your dreams and rainbows (you know what they mean to me and darling Theresa xx) Dreams come true, and miracles happen xxx
love always x
Rhian xxx
22/11/08 20:26
Hey ladies! Thought I'd pop in to say hello, I haven't posted in absolutely aaaages! Hope everyone is doing fab x I was put back on the clexane 3 days after stopping it as I had a suspected mini-stroke at 36 weeks, had an MRI and CT scan, stopped injecting 3 weeks ago
Olivia Grace was born on 16th September at 7:59, weighing 7lb4oz and 49 cms. It was a difficult labour but soooooo worth every second of pain and worry. I was induced on the 15th between 10-11am, the gel started working almost immediately with contractions every few mins, but my cervix wasnt opening. My mam stopped the night (I asked to be put in a single room so she could lol they offered me the room Jamie was born in and I refused. Had a massive (HOOOOGE!) show at 3am, then my own cons visited me in the morning, a mw examined me and I had opened to 3-4cms and was told I could go soon to delivery ward to have my waters broken, I was so chuffed, apparently most women need more than 1 dose of gel, Lumpy was obviously ready! Got to delivery and a mw put me on the oxytocin drip. Then the bummer - Lumpy had un-engaged herself so I had to get prepped for surgery as the registrar and a doctor had to break my waters and push baby's head down at the same time so not for the cord to go around her neck. I was sobbing uncontrollably with fear, registrar asked me how old I was, implying I was a kid, she was shocked when I said 25, but ffs I was petrified for my daughter's safety, who wouldnt be crying?? risky procedure but thankfully all went well. Then the contractions came unbearable, the head mw told the mw off and told her to lower the dosage on the drip as I was having contraction after contraction with no break at all. My mw was useless. I wanted to push and she just wouldnt listen, but I think the head mw knew what a b*tch she was and told me 'do what you want to do sweetheart', so I pushed and after 30 mins Olivia Grace, my beautiful miracle, was born safely. Unfortunately I only got to hold her for about 10 mins as I had a retained placenta and bleeding heavily (funnily enough, the same happened with angel Jamie) and was in a tremendous amount of pain, after over a hr and a half the surgeon came in the room ready to take me for surgery, but at that very second the head mw managed to pull the placenta out. It had already started to deteriorate at 39 weeks, thank god I was induced. I stayed on the oxytocin to help my uterus shrink back until the following morning. But I don't care, my miracle is here.
Livvy as we call her is doing brilliantly, she's now 11lb8oz at 9 weeks, so putting on half a pound a week. She's breastfed, as was Beth til 8 and a half months, had her first jabs last week and was fab. I asked my gp about a vasectomy for J (hehe), he thought I was only 16, ffs doc I have a 4 year old too
She only poos every 5 days since she was 2 weeks old (took her to gps god knows how many times for it!) but apparently as she is breastfed there is less 'wastage' for her to pass so is 'normal' (Beth went every day though, hmmm) We will never be able to have any more children but I thank god and look at my girls every day and realise how lucky we really are to have what we have, I have never been so happy in my life and after 2 months I'm still on cloud 9. I know this post has been 'self-obsessed' but it IS intentional to let everyone know who has been through this, that you can do it, my god I still look at Livvy now and think 'how are you even here??' if that makes sense? x never thought it would happen to me, EVER!Anyway ladies, I just want to let you all know that, my god, there IS hope for everyone. I still think about Jamie and my tiny angels every day, my beautiful son will never b
3/11/08 18:28
I have bumped this as lots of memories in here xxx
Love always xxx
18/9/08 21:30
Toni
Congratulations on the birth of Cydnee-Mae Grace (hope I got that right!)
Can't believe the time seems to have gone so quick! Enjoy your baby girl and will check in to see if any news from Rhi tomorrow night.
You have both given me so much hope whilst you were on TTCALB and for that I thank you so much {{HUGS}}
Big hugs
Katy and Bubs (16 weeks today!!!) xxx
18/9/08 19:46
congrtaulations to both of you....X I've been here since march and when ever I've started to lose faith I've popped in here to read your stories. Well Done.
18/9/08 19:37
Congratulation Rhi on the birth of Olivia Grace cant wait to see pics of both little girls I bet you are both so proud xxx Angela
16/9/08 15:51
Still no news ... come on Rhi what ya playing at!!!!!
Will update once I hear xxx
16/9/08 13:37
you did it Toni,i'm so happy for you.
best of luck Rhixxxx,Dawn.15/9/08 11:43
I will try and get 5 mins to update this properly ....... she says! LOL
I still can't believe what we've both been through and how far we've come, 2 years ago I never thought I'd see the day again when I'm holding my baby in my arms ... and I'm sure Rhi feels the same .....
I look at my little miracle and just want to cry all the time ... she's absolutely gorgeous and perfect in every way ... like her sister really xx
Rhi babes ... will be thinking of you today and really hope the induction doesn't take too long ........ can't wait to hear she's born ... YOU CANNOT GOT THROUGH THE NIGHT THOUGH ... She MUST be born on a today, Monday!!! LOL xxxx
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CONGRATULATIONS TONI XXXX I am so proud of you and I hope you enjoy every moment of your gorgeous little girl xx Rhiann good luck for tomorrow and I cant wait to hear of your gorgeous little girl arriving too x
You have both come so far and you both deserve your much wanted girls I am so sorry for the late reply but my 2 year old is a nightmare at the moment and I dont get a moment to myself she seems to be getting jealous of Ruby 6 months after she was born I think she realises now she is here to stay.
I know your angels will be so proud of their mummies and their little sisters take care and keep us informed and cant wait to see the pics of your little girls.
Love Angela (evierhys) and Ruby
xxxx13/9/08 13:19
Hey all! Thought I'd let you all know here that Toni gave birth to a beautiful little princess Cydnee-Mae Grace on 8th September at 2:20am weighing 5lb 12oz, she's an absolute stunner!
[c}[c}[c}As for me, I'm still here lol I just had a sweep about half hr ago, cervix is posterior so was awkward to do a 'proper' sweep, but hopefully it will kickstart something eh. It's strange, I'm so excited to meet Lumpy (still no name!) can't wait for the awful contractions yet I'm cr*pping myself. Anyway, if nothing happens I'm being induced on Monday at 39+2, was going to be 38+2 but I wanted to try and go naturally, yeah right lol
So girls, even though Lumpy is still nice and snug in there, just wanted to tell you all that there is hope for everyone, I never thought I'd make it this far.
Hope all is well x
Rhi xx
7/9/08 14:49
Hey Just bumping and to inform Toni is on her way into hospital now , Contractions started 7am this morning xxxxxx
Toni we cant wait for the good news sweetie xxx7/9/08 11:18
Hiya Rhiann and Toni. Can't belive how quickly your pg's have flown along!!
Sounds like it's almost imminent infact!! Aw, bet you can't wait to hold your precious girls.
Good luck.
I'll pop back and check soon, take care xxx
6/9/08 20:45
Hi Rhiann and Toni
Just checking how you are I am so pleased your much awaited girls will be here in no time i am so jealous as I am so broody at the moment and Ruby is only 6 months old. we are going to try for one last time after xmas just hope I will get another baby next year!
Its only natural for you both to be feeling a little scared as towards the end of me being pregnant with Ruby it brought back all the memories of my losses but the moment your gorgeous girls are in your arms you will know all the pain has been worth it. I am sooo pleased for you both you deserve it so much and your other children will be so excited about their sisters they wont mind their mummies being away for awhile.
Keep me informed as when they both arrive Im sure Zoe will txt me when they are born and just relax and enjoy your last days of pregnancy you will miss your bumps when the girls are born but you will be so happy, I think thats why I want just one more baby as the feeling of holding a newborn baby after they have been born is such a great feeling knowing you have brought them into this world and they are safe is like no other feeling in the world.
Take care and my thoughts are with you as you count down the days until your little miracles arrive your angels will be there with you throughout every step of your labours, enjoy every moment xxx Angela
1/9/08 09:32
Whooo hoooo ... whoooo hooooo .... we've made it to September Rhi ... I never thought for one minute I'd be writing this on here!! It has been a tough 8 months, more so for you babe, but we've made it this far ... we can go into labour whenever now I don't mind LOL I've got my September baby on the way!!!! The 3rd would be nice ... it would have been my nan's birthday, god bless her, but we'll just see what happens .... don't feel like I'm about to go into labour but then who can tell ... I have had some strong BH's this weekend ... Friday being the worst ... in fact going round Tesco's I would have said I was in labour but it was a constant pain so I knew I wasn't iykwim!!!
Packing my bag today and then giving the house a good clean ... so who knows ... everything else if ready to bring lo home ... god I can't wait ... the two years of heartache is nearly over ..............................
I really hope our stories have given others hope xxxx
Will keep this updated until the final day ................
Love to all
Toni xxx
1/9/08 09:32
Whooo hoooo ... whoooo hooooo .... we've made it to September Rhi ... I never thought for one minute I'd be writing this on here!! It has been a tough 8 months, more so for you babe, but we've made it this far ... we can go into labour whenever now I don't mind LOL I've got my September baby on the way!!!! The 3rd would be nice ... it would have been my nan's birthday, god bless her, but we'll just see what happens .... don't feel like I'm about to go into labour but then who can tell ... I have had some strong BH's this weekend ... Friday being the worst ... in fact going round Tesco's I would have said I was in labour but it was a constant pain so I knew I wasn't iykwim!!!
Packing my bag today and then giving the house a good clean ... so who knows ... everything else if ready to bring lo home ... god I can't wait ... the two years of heartache is nearly over ..............................
I really hope our stories have given others hope xxxx
Will keep this updated until the final day ................
Love to all
Toni xxx
25/8/08 13:48
Hey girls x thought I'd update here again. MW called this morning instead of tomorrow, baby is very low down although not fully engaged she can't move the baby's head (???) It was a different mw so she asked why I'm being induced at 38 weeks, grr why dont they read notes?? She's never heard of Hughes syndrome/APS so had to bl**dy explain to her and tell her about my losses. She says baby will be bigger than Beth was (6lb 11oz), says she'll be at least 7 and a half - 8lbs! She left a urine strip with me as she didnt give me much notice to do a sample, phoned her with the 'results' about half hr later and I have protein and glucose in there again so she's popping in tomorrow to send a sample off for me. Feel absolutely rotten today so going up my mam's with Beth so I can rest a little, I'm sure I've started losing some of the mucus plug, had really slimy orangy stuff earlier (sorry lol) and have been waking up with strong BHs last night, hoping this is it now, I was born at 36 weeks myself and weighed an impressive 6lb 5oz so I'm not too worried if it happens now.
Oh, and I had my last clexane jab yesterday, cr*pping it now as nothing's stopping my blood from clotting. Can't wait for this pain to be over with so I can finally hold my little miracle in my arms, even mw thinks I might go before my induction so here's hoping eh. Hope you're all well xx
Rhi xxx
22/8/08 18:52
Keeping it bumped my lovlies xxxx
Hey Rhi xx
Sat here with tears in my eyes babe, i am soooo happy for you i truely am, just seems for me that my dreams are being pushed further and further away
i know xmas is going to be very awful for me, i am trying to gear myself up for it, but have to keep plodding on... x
you will never forget Jamie ever ever or your other angels hun but we have to keep going,,,
Oi send me an updated pic please i have to see how she is growing xx Love always x