You have my every sympathy. I haven't mc'd myself, but SIL had a stillbirth last year and I was at the hospital when they induced her and we were all waiting to find out whether or not her bubs survived and he didn't. I've been fine most of my pregnancy but I'm now 39+3 and these last few weeks I've been a wreck at times, terrified something's going to go wrong at the last minute. As you say, it's so near yet so far. Hang on in there. Make sure your DP is there to hold your hand, and try to hold onto the stats that the odds are so much greater that everything will be fine. If you need to cry, let it out, but just try to think calmly and logically and stay positive. As I type this I'm trying to say the same to myself. <big hugs>

Had words with my mw and her sympathy overwhelmed me....... not. she just made me feel guilty for wanting it all over now.

BUT she says i could go up to the hossie to get monitored and beg whilst i'm there to please induce me now as i'm not coping. i'm 37 weeks sunday and as the days get closer i'm mor and more worried.

OMG Tiger I can't believe your time is nearly here ...  good luck and best wishes I'm thinking of you xx

Carla (formally carlajayne) 28 weeks xxxx

Two weeks today i'm getting induced, seems the closer i get to it the smaller the window for something to go wrong in is. Just makes me worry more. I'm making myself a gibbering wreck here.

Should have said i have changed hospitals BUT the doctor that helped cause a lot of my anxieties has moved to where i go now. I've requested he comes nowhere near me BUT on the day if he's the on call doc i will have little options. My consultant is very good where i am now  and she's said if it can be avoided he won't come anywhere near me . 

and ps - remember you from ttcal - cant believe you are this near already!!!!!!! just remeber those days on ttcal and how far you have come xxxxx

have you talked to your mw? are you in an area where you can choose an alternative hospital/ birthing place?

you are bound to be anxious, but if you have ++ feelings about prev problems and the hospital it is bound to affect you , i know my friend had a very traumatic birth and she spoke to mw who said she could request something i think they called post natal counselling qwhere you discuss issues from last time so you can find some solutions or deal wit issues/ anxieties. worth a try???

good luck with it all hon, this time is one of the worst isnt it, but it is going to happen and if it helps to think by 22 days time you WILL be holding your babes in your arms xxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxxx

I'm due to be induced on 21st April. I have 5 kids already and this is my last.

Thing is back in june 03 i had a loss at 16w and was treated very badly by the hospital who turned the whole experience from difficult to a nightmare. I still get flashbacks now of it all. I've had 3 other early mc's as well but never ended up in hospital those times.

I'm really scared again. i know i'm being daft as my hubby is always telling me not to be silly. But i just can't help it or relax. This is going to sound daft but sometimes it comes as a shock to me that i'm actually going to have a baby. And i get really scared. So near yet so far maybe. I would never take pg for granted since what happened to me before, and everything that can go wrong keeps rattling round my head, like my own brain is trying to scare me. I swear my experience in the hospital has caused the way i feel .